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Am I a sociopath with anxiety and depression?

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DaveSanta999

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Alright I’m hella confused if I am a bit of sociopath or not really. I’ll be 100% honest with the things I say.





So I know for a fact that my dad is a sociopath. He manipulates, lies he’s selfish, been in trouble, likes for people to think he’s this amazing caring passionate person and plays this image like he’s very passionate about being a Christian and he watches a lot of like religious things and tries to look good in front of the older people in the church. Now he’s got this different side to him, he’s done shady shit and is friends with shady people. We’re from Poland but now live in UK, but back in Poland he worked for some Ukrainian or Russian mafia. What he was doing is transporting huge amounts of cigarettes from Ukrainian or Russia and transporting it to Germany for profit. Eventually he had a crash because he fell asleep whilst driving and he got found out and went to prison for a year in Germany. He lied the whole family it was just transporting vegetables. And when my family found out he said he was just doing it for us his family. Which he sometimes says that he’d give away anything for us and I guess he does kinda care about us but yeah he’s kinda selfish as well. Oh yeah also he has strong options about certain things and then he talks very loudly, fast and enthusiastically and I seem to do the same.





Now I suffered from anxiety and depression my whole life nearly and I’m not very social and charismatic. However, I don’t seem to care about many people and don’t care if something happens unless they’re my family, elderly and poor people but apart from that I do lack some kind of empathy probably. I seem to like manipulation and I often manipulate my friends to do stupid things so that either lose money or like for example get addicted from something like cigarettes as it’s stupid and they’ll end up losing money. Not sure why I enjoy this and I know it’s kinda fucked up but can’t help it.





I had one gf before and she was I knew she was interested so long story short we got together and she really loved me a lot. However I never actually loved her but kinda faked it as I wanted a gf and I want to be truly in love but I used to hate meeting up with her and I used to be so happy when like I got away from meeting her but she was upset about it. Eventually it ended as she kinda found away I didn’t care much about her and I wasn’t sad about it or anything however she went through bad depression because of it which I don’t care that much about. But I’d love to be truly in love with a girl but not sure if that’s kinda impossible.





Now I wanna know if I’m a sociopath even though I do suffer from bad anxiety, social anxiety and depression. Or am I just fucked up.


I never been in trouble but I’ve got friends that are into drugs a lot but I haven’t been too reckless with them I only smoke weed and I’ve tried mdma and ketamine once.
 
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Zackthemaniac

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We dont diagnose people here, but imho i think your behavior is more you being shaped by your environment and stuff you learned from your dad than you having sociopathy.
I think youd benefit from therapy, Learn healthy ways to act and deal with emotions instead of the example you were given growing up. (No offense meant)
 
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DaveSanta999

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We dont diagnose people here, but imho i think your behavior is more you being shaped by your environment and stuff you learned from your dad than you having sociopathy.
I think youd benefit from therapy, Learn healthy ways to act and deal with emotions instead of the example you were given growing up. (No offense meant)

I don’t really like therapy and opening up about such things to a person that I don’t even know well. Tbh I never told anyone about such behaviour as they’d think I’m fucked up or something. And now the thing also is that my dad has never been much in my life. My parents divorced when I was 10 (now I’m 21) and I very really meet him. And when I was a kid he also wasn’t often home he often just met with his friends or whatever and tried to impress people.
 
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Zackthemaniac

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Oh than it could be genetic traits. But id still recommend going to therapy. Nobody enjoys the idea of going at first, but therapy is non judgemental. Its literally someone who only job is to listen to your problems and help.

Couldnt hurt to try right ?
 
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