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We're just keep it simple.

I need to start over fresh.

Now even here I don't fit in, time to move again.

How do I get in?

Time for the paper and pen.

Time to escape again.
 
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We're just keep it simple.

I need to start over fresh.

Now even here I don't fit in, time to move again.

How do I get in?

Time for the paper and pen.

Time to escape again.
worried about you...are you ok?
 
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worried about you...are you ok?
I already said too much.

I want it all gone. All new, all fresh, new everything, just total restart mode. New life, new look, new place, new job, new goals, new hobbies.

Gotta go somehow but speak less and blend in and become the grey man. The everyday guy that isn't the werido in the room.

I gotta look up many stats, info and other details to craft a new existence on this spinning ball of doom.

It's all too long even now.....
 
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I believe you're valuable just as you are. a little bit broken and torn. but the chinese never throw away a broken or cracked bowl. they mend it with gold. becuase every crack, every chip tells a story. it's the same with you. every scar has a story. why would you want to throw away the evidence of a battle fought and won? why would you toss aside every struggle as if you didn't overcome it? you'll overcome again. because your war scars show you already have.
 
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I believe you're valuable just as you are. a little bit broken and torn. but the chinese never throw away a broken or cracked bowl. they mend it with gold. becuase every crack, every chip tells a story. it's the same with you. every scar has a story. why would you want to throw away the evidence of a battle fought and won? why would you toss aside every struggle as if you didn't overcome it? you'll overcome again. because your war scars show you already have.
I have too much clutter and I want something different I'm not happy with who I am. I want it gone but, while living a new life with no one suspecting a thing and maybe sometimes have a couple of returning guests depending on how secret it's kept.

I don't like my current job, I don't have my own good transportation, and I feel belittled and kept down and like I get stepped on and, others want to control me.

I wanna be alone now no roommates or family members living with me. Everyone gets so clingy and then they cling more when I express my unhappiness. I love being single to the point of also being alone now.

Living a simple life no loans, no debt, no bullshit just a simple nobody that can walk away without anyone noticing. I don't want my past shown because I need money and good money.

I need to play a character for a good job. A simple guy getting by no drama no nothing. A plain style and look and no one asking much questions.

As anonymous as I can be. I wanna float away and just see the world go by and I just fade away and go numb.

I want days to fly by like nothing because I want to be able to plan it all out and have it go right.

I wish I had time to sleep again and work less hours with more pay without being in debt to the system.

I wanna have a small simple life. Just a place to come home and be truly all mine and cheap.

Just a good stocked fridge, a small kitchen, a comfy couch a coffee table and something to stream.

I used to game but not really anymore it's become too expensive but having a computer with retro games for a TV would be cool.

Simple as can be.
 
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Have you tried minimalism? It's about having as little as possible and keeping things simple. It sounds like it would appeal a lot to you and help you to feel more peaceful. But do keep things that bring you joy.
 
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Have you tried minimalism? It's about having as little as possible and keeping things simple. It sounds like it would appeal a lot to you and help you to feel more peaceful. But do keep things that bring you joy.
Funny you mention that I'm trying to move towards minimalism but those around me keep not allowing it but, making my life complicated and miserable.

People are evil and I hate them entirely. They suck all the joy out of me and, socializing tires me to the point of frustration.
 
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The wrong people can make you feel that way definitely. When you are with the right people or your kind of people, it's different.
 
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