- Feb 11, 2021
- Calgary edmonton
I don't like asking for help I feel guilty. I'm running out of options day in and out I'm beyond depressed with anxiety and depersonalization. It does not let up. Trying to figure out how to get beyond this for a while now no luck. I can't believe I was once happy and felt like a normal person growing up. It started to change at age 20 but slowly got worse. Having energy when I was younger, hanging out with friends, even playing sports... Blows my mind I did all those things without getting anxiety and no depression. I could not play a sport let alone even make it to work. After trying bunches of suppliments, a handful of antidepressants I'm still struggling I really am...one thing I talked with a doctor about was sleep apnea... I think that could be playing a huge role in this. Zero energy, depressed I have zero energy going up stairs is hard enough, heart palpitations and anxiety. But after telling her that I wake up 10 times each night only get 5 hours sleep instead of 8 now, I snore and have been told I snore so I could be stopping my breathing cutting of oxygen to the brain, wake up feeling more than I do before bed. Etc. I'll still keep trying antidepressants but I think I need a CPAP machine. The way my life is daily is not even called living. It's just ain't the feelings that you feel when depression strikes.