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Alcohol is my Xanax - Seeking Help Under Medicaid is Hard

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lcs067

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Hello all

Yes, controversial subject line, but it is true.

I've had medicaid for a long time and my only option for mental health services is the county clinic.

I've recently stopped going there because I just can't stand it anymore - the clientele, the providers, environment, everything.

I have major depression, anxiety, and severe insomnia.

I've been treated with anti-seizure medication (will no longer take) anti-psychotics (hell, no, not anymore), and antidepressants.

What I actually need is a small amount of a benzo - like a little Xanax, just to function better - or else I never sleep and I go off on people (I work, go to school, am a parent)

Oh my god, try getting a benzo from a medicaid provider. They act like it's a felony.

Oh, yeah, and I need to stop drinking - at least that's what they all tell me. It's true, but having a drink is the only thing that calms me down, often times. Destructive, I know.

My cortisol is through the roof (adrenals are shot) and I want to fight everybody all the time. I saw a post from someone about being constantly annoyed by other people. That is an understatement for me. These days, all i do is cry and want to fight people.

Until they come up with something better...oh - and never, ever take a anti-psychotic, including Seroquel. What a bunch of you know what.
 
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Hi my friend. I understand being under medicaid may make the situation more difficult but it really does sound like you need some cognitive behavioral therapy. As you've noticed already even when you do medicate or self medicate it doesn't completely cure the problem. Therapy is needed for a longer term effect. If money/medicaid makes this impossible then consider some workbooks, again I've recommended the one I use is the 'anxiety and phobia workbook' by bourne. I'm not sure what the primary condition is you face though -- if it is depression or anxiety. There is a sticky thread on helping you tell the two apart. Assuming it is anxiety, the workbook will help, but it is more focused on anxiety and not depression. They go hand in hand though as you know.

Breathing exercises, meditation and yoga are other things you may want to try in the meantime. These are designed to get your body out of.. or at least mitigate the effects of your adrenals pumping up all the time and that's really the first step in feeling better as you may have already figured out.

I know under medicare you can still get therapy relatively cheap ($40 a visit co-pay), but I know medicaid is different, so I'm not sure how it works there and it is going to depend on the particular state your in.
 
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By the way there are many herbals you can try that are non-addictive. That's really the heart of the issue for the medical provides most likely. And you can buy herbals online (amazon etc) so there aren't as many barriers. For calming and insomnia Valerian root maybe your best first try, also kava kava, and then the herbals that help anxiety like SAME, there are good pages out there listing a bunch if you google anxiety herbal.

Just be careful, as with anything, you don't want to mix a bunch of different things together , especially with alcohol and prescription meds. That part really should still involve the doctor to help you.
 
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Hi,

I just wanted to say that I live in New York City and I have the cheapest healthcare plan (aside from medicare, and it's still expensive), and I go to what I would think is the equivalent of a 'county clinic'. I'm with you on your feelings about that. The environment is kind of cold and unwelcoming, there seems to be a lot of welfare recipients going there, and though it's not fair of me to react this way, it does make me question the quality of care that I'm receiving. But at the same time, I think part of my problem with anxiety is being too judgmental, so for the time being I'm giving it a chance and seeing where it goes.
 
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Hi my friend. I understand being under medicaid may make the situation more difficult but it really does sound like you need some cognitive behavioral therapy. As you've noticed already even when you do medicate or self medicate it doesn't completely cure the problem. Therapy is needed for a longer term effect. If money/medicaid makes this impossible then consider some workbooks, again I've recommended the one I use is the 'anxiety and phobia workbook' by bourne. I'm not sure what the primary condition is you face though -- if it is depression or anxiety. There is a sticky thread on helping you tell the two apart. Assuming it is anxiety, the workbook will help, but it is more focused on anxiety and not depression. They go hand in hand though as you know.

Breathing exercises, meditation and yoga are other things you may want to try in the meantime. These are designed to get your body out of.. or at least mitigate the effects of your adrenals pumping up all the time and that's really the first step in feeling better as you may have already figured out.

I know under medicare you can still get therapy relatively cheap ($40 a visit co-pay), but I know medicaid is different, so I'm not sure how it works there and it is going to depend on the particular state your in.
 
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I just wanted to add my .02 that the advice gam 9147 offered was excellent. I try to handle my anxiety naturally and many times I would love to take a pill of some sort but fear of dependence and side effects stops me.
Tai Chi, running in the park, meditating, relaxation tapes and martini's are what is helping me.
 
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Thank you for the compliment, I'm glad you have some techniques that work! Celebrate your successes :) When it comes to drug dependence there is very clear information on what drugs cause dependence and which don't. Xanax does for example I know, whereas many of the herbals do not (like kava, valerian, sam-e, st. john's wart). You can try that route if you want something to supplement that is non-addictive. I don't like pharmacuticals for anxiety either. I have taken xanax once or twice in my life when I've felt really bad, and its strong stuff. Kava Kava does very similar things though and calms. I take st. john's wart on a regular basis as an SSRI... not sure if it that really helps as much but my anxiety is (mostly) more mild except for more extreme episodes from time to time. So I try to work through them without other meds.
 
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Please be careful with St John’s Wart.
It shouldn’t be taken with SSRI’s

You probably know that already and there is a warning on the leaflet.
Just thought I’d mention it.

Also there are therapy courses such as cbt on the internet.
Many are free.
 
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