DanL15000
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Sure, I'm a diagnosed agoraphobic. What you feeling?
I just popped a couple of lorazepam as I spent the morning trying to get a cashiers check to pay the landlord, which took two tries since my bank closed yesterday. And I have to go out to be with relatives.
I'm ending 2020 with a hard day. One hour, I'm out of here....
Gads.
I just popped a couple of lorazepam as I spent the morning trying to get a cashiers check to pay the landlord, which took two tries since my bank closed yesterday. And I have to go out to be with relatives.
I'm ending 2020 with a hard day. One hour, I'm out of here....
Gads.
DanL15000
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By the way, I see you just joined, welcome.
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Vampire333
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Sure, I'm a diagnosed agoraphobic. What you feeling?
I just popped a couple of lorazepam as I spent the morning trying to get a cashiers check to pay the landlord, which took two tries since my bank closed yesterday. And I have to go out to be with relatives.
I'm ending 2020 with a hard day. One hour, I'm out of here....
Gads.
Horrible. Like you have a prison sentence. You see the world going on around you and you can’t even join it if you wanted too. Summers can be the worst. You might want to go out and enjoy the sun but again, your housebound. Feel like your life and freedoms have been robbed. It’s horrendous. I’ve lost so many years due to it.
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Vampire333
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Hey Dan. How long have you been suffering with it for? If you don’t mind me asking. Hope you are having a better day today. Does the Lorazepam help you?Sure, I'm a diagnosed agoraphobic. What you feeling?
I just popped a couple of lorazepam as I spent the morning trying to get a cashiers check to pay the landlord, which took two tries since my bank closed yesterday. And I have to go out to be with relatives.
I'm ending 2020 with a hard day. One hour, I'm out of here....
Gads.
sorry if I don’t reply back sooner. I don’t come on here everyday due to my anxietys.
DanL15000
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I was first diagnosed as a Severe Agoraphobic in late 2014. It also came with a diagnosis of Severe and Chronic Schizotypal Personality disorder.
The second actually helps offset the first as I don't want to be around people. I do get the feelings of loneliness though. For me that means if I could have about four hours a week from...well, that gets into the naughty thoughts.
As to going out. Yeah, no, but I found a release. I really love antiques and I don't seem to mind being around strangers in places I've never been. I guess I feel like I can head home anytime I want. So I do yard sales, searching for the old and odd.
The Lorazepam acts like a sedative. Calms me down. I take it as needed which is almost never, only when going out. I don't even use it for stores anymore as I simply buy groceries during slow hours. I stay away from the pills just as much as possible, if anyone has ever had the insomnia after getting hooked on the pills to sleep? It bites.
Today is interesting. I'm going to run out of anything to drink, milk, soda, all gone. But I'm fighting between just drinking tap water or actually going to the store.
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Vampire333
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Thanks for sharing Dan. Having to deal with it for as long as you have is really hard. Trust me. when it comes to the agoraphobia part, I know how you feel.
I don’t like being around people either. Just because how it makes me feel and how bad my anxiety and thoughts will become. I don’t like to make people feel uncomfortable with my uncomfortableness. It’s just a horrible feeling. I’m really sensitive to body language as well so when I see people are looking at me weirdly it just makes things so much worse. I just tend to avoid it as much as I can. I wake up in the morning and my goal is isolation, stay inside and to be alone from outsiders. This wasn’t the case in the beginning. I was actually a confident young lad and loved socialising and being around people. It took my years to actually except the change and now (not good for me) im actually in a way content with it. I’ve adapted to it and the thought of going out is just the worst thought ever. I’m happy inside (most of the time). I’m in a situation now though where this has to change and I’m having to fight this battle head on. And not hide inside. Get panic attacks just thinking about it.
I’m glad you’ve got something with Lorazepam to calm you down and it helps. I use diazepam when I’m like that. I used to take other meds but I’m come off them all. In my opinion and for me...they weren’t helping. I’m glad I’m off them. Coming off them was a nightmare too. Not my cup of T.
I don’t go out at all at the moment due to it. When I did, to go shopping, I’d do what you do and go when I knew hardly no one would be there. Less people the better.
If you managed to go to the store to get drinks. Well done.
I don’t like being around people either. Just because how it makes me feel and how bad my anxiety and thoughts will become. I don’t like to make people feel uncomfortable with my uncomfortableness. It’s just a horrible feeling. I’m really sensitive to body language as well so when I see people are looking at me weirdly it just makes things so much worse. I just tend to avoid it as much as I can. I wake up in the morning and my goal is isolation, stay inside and to be alone from outsiders. This wasn’t the case in the beginning. I was actually a confident young lad and loved socialising and being around people. It took my years to actually except the change and now (not good for me) im actually in a way content with it. I’ve adapted to it and the thought of going out is just the worst thought ever. I’m happy inside (most of the time). I’m in a situation now though where this has to change and I’m having to fight this battle head on. And not hide inside. Get panic attacks just thinking about it.
I’m glad you’ve got something with Lorazepam to calm you down and it helps. I use diazepam when I’m like that. I used to take other meds but I’m come off them all. In my opinion and for me...they weren’t helping. I’m glad I’m off them. Coming off them was a nightmare too. Not my cup of T.
I don’t go out at all at the moment due to it. When I did, to go shopping, I’d do what you do and go when I knew hardly no one would be there. Less people the better.
If you managed to go to the store to get drinks. Well done.
DanL15000
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Wow, just came back to read this thread. I won the battle to get drinks last week. Lost it this week, went with tap water only for 48 hours. Wasn't so bad.
Took advice from someone and ordered soda to be delivered, with milk, etc. Now I have enough supplies to stay inside for two or three weeks.
Took advice from someone and ordered soda to be delivered, with milk, etc. Now I have enough supplies to stay inside for two or three weeks.
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Vampire333
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I feel you. The services here are terrible as it is. Lockdown definitely isn’t helping. I hope you are ok and managing the best you can. I’m meant to be having an appointment tomorrow but they are expecting me to go to them... even knowing my condition. It’s an absolute joke. How are they dragging there feet for you?
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Vampire333
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Don’t let losing it get you down Dan. It’s amazing you got out last week with how hard it is having to deal with what we deal with.
Ordering it to be delivered just makes all that stress go away. Isn’t it an amazing feeling knowing you are all stocked up and don’t have to think about going out for ages. Love it. Bye outside world. *waves*
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wordypuzzler
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Council jobsworths claiming every little excuse rather than doing what they’re paid to do.. their jobs. So far every department has excuses out the wazoo for why they “can’t “ but none for making the council tax a reason to “do” it.
The numb nuts so far;
Housing (refuse to make reasonable adjustments for disabled people )
Environmental health (refusal to do just about anything involving getting off their arse) there’s a barking dog who bark at his own shadow, adding to our amount of lost sleep. Prevented our opening windows in last years 90+ degrees heat.
Repairs won’t fix a plumbing fault, went all way up to chief executive.. muppet wouldn’t even type in DSo regulations in his computer .. now he’s retired we have a new chief executive
Sadly not enough sleep here so there’s been ctb thoughts as suffering non stop with sleep deprivation.
DanL15000
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We aren't hurting anybody. We need support to enrich our lives...not force to go out because it is "good" for us.
Jobs we can do at home....stuff like that.
I hope this works in Britain. Warren Zevon, Splendid Isolation
Jobs we can do at home....stuff like that.
I hope this works in Britain. Warren Zevon, Splendid Isolation