Advice on BPD symptoms

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Hi
I am new to the forum and was wanting some advice with symptoms of BPD.
I am a 50 year old woman with a partner and a 21 year old son. For years now (without really realising it) I have had problems with mood swings, not wanting to socialise, overspending, excessive alcohol intake, being over sensitive/emotional and taking tablets to ease my moods. I have not yet been to the dr but have been finding life hard for quite a while and have taken more than I should to ease the emotional ache inside.
I have read about early trauma being a trigger for BPD. This was not abuse for me but my mum had two babies when I was aged 3 and 5 and they both died. I do remember the second birth and even to this day, every time I think about them I cry. I have never told my parents about this feeling I have. Is it guilt that I'm feeling because I'm here and my sisters are not?
I am in a relationship but my partner can be sarcastic in the way he speaks to me. It is very hard to explain if I ever try to do something different he is detrimental as though that could not work or why are you doing that? I have also got upset when we have been out in the car and I've got the map reading wrong and it was my fault. I have spoken to him about my sisters but he says that it has got nothing to do with the way I am now. It has really got me down over the years and as a result I have comfort spent.
I really now should seek medical help as everything is getting on top of me but is it just because I am in a relationship that I am not completely happy with or are these typical symptoms of BPD?
I am so confused.
 
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I can’t really say but I’m in the same boat so I understand
 
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Hi EstherRose
Thank you for your message and understanding. Thinking of you as well at this time. 💜
 
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Thank you ☺️

It’s possible that we’re just naturally emotionally sensitive. I never experienced abuse either and I feel like I don’t know why I have so many BPD-like traits.
 
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Thank you ☺️

It’s possible that we’re just naturally emotionally sensitive. I never experienced abuse either and I feel like I don’t know why I have so many BPD-like traits.
I know what you mean. I am still new to finding out about BPD but with all my problems that have been becoming increasingly frequent and feeling very low at the moment, they do look to be similar symptoms. I will have to see my GP but that's easier said than done at my surgery!
 

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