Lu please get help for yourself. There’s so many people on here that care about you. You need to find out what it is that you find so hard to cope with that make you take such risks. You could be doing all sorts of long term damage to yourself by doing this xx
Hey Lu, I remember the feeling of not being in control and taking purposeful overdoses with prescription medication. Like you, all I wanted to do was sleep. My life I realise now, was very chaotic back then. Overdosing was the only real control I had.
With therapy, I learned what I needed to do to change the chaos around me and surround myself in an environment where I wasn’t as stressed. Yes there are still times I think about hurting myself again, but I figure they’re just thoughts and they pass eventually.
We all want you to be safe Lu, can you please get in touch with your crisis team? Hopefully they will be able to help you and give you some added support. I’d hate for something awful like liver disease to happen!
That's what he's done all your life hun, which is a big part of why you are the way you are but your such a lovely person, your well loved here by your friends and you have your meeting with your man who loves you UH to look forward to, you just need to learn to believe in yourself a bit more my lovely.
Your not strange at all, don't listen to your dad.
Please don't hurt yourself, your not bad either.
If you feel the urges contact your crisis team or CPN or support worker.
Or talk to us.
You just have to break the cycle of self-harm.
Lots of hugs
I promised I wouldn't do it which is making me feel unwell in itself because all I want to do right now is go into the kitchen and take a load
it is THE only thing that calms me down ,other forms of SH don't really work
I feel awful for promising not to when I still really really need to
I just do I want to take one every day and I know I cant but I want to
I haven't for a while and its killing me to not
so I have to hurt myself even more for promising not to and then wanting to
You're not evil at all Fairy Lu, quite the opposite. If you break your promise under these circumstances you're just human. All that said and whilst I do understand what you mean when you say that you need to do it, please don't both for your own short and long term health.
I was addicted to overdosing too at one time now it is injuring myself, all i can say is overdosing is not a good way to go, try to meditate and get in touch with your feelings as it is often a disconection with feelings that makes you overdose in the first place. good luck