Hey Lu, I used to be hell bent of overdosing. At one stage I was averaging two trips to AE per week for about six months. I was basically told by the head of department to stop wasting their time and resources. I the refused to get help when I’d OD, just pass out at home. This went on for at least another six months. Then one day I just stopped. Yes I have urges still but they never turn into actions.
What I’m trying to say is it does get better eventually. In the meantime we’re all sitting with you.
Please don't do that, you most deifintly do belong and are very loved. Is there anyone with you right now? not sure if it helps but can you call the Samaritans or 999? Please, please don't do anything. You belong in this world
Please take care Lu . It sounds as if it’s a real cry for help and you should be talking to your care team. Also you could be damaging your liver if your taking more than you should. Maybe get a blood test at the GPs to make sure everything is ok.
You are loved on this forum . And by UH x