You really need to love yourself and love life in general. Overdosing on meds can be fatal; just because you survived your past suicide attempts doesn't mean you will survive the next one. If you're feeling depressed, you just need to visit your psychiatrist and tell him/her to adjust your meds.
Hi Lu you really need to talk to you pdoc about this. It’s very dangerous and you may not come round from the next one. What is the reason you keep doing this. Is it to end your life or as an escape from some turmoil. Please seek help Lu before it’s too late