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Addicted to addictions

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I’m not sure if this is possible that’s why I’m posting but I think I’m addicted to being addicted
I like to do thinks like smoke and drink and other things but when I think about it I’m not addicted to the actual activity itself it’s more I want to do one of these activities and I feel weird and strange and bad if I’m not doing something addicting but I can easily switch out smoking, for example, for something else because I more feel the need to have something to be addicted and don’t care what it is and I’m just a bit confused about it and I’m looking for help and advice and whether I’m just overthinking/over complicating my situation as that is something I find myself doing a lot.
This is also my first post on this website and I’m not very good at articulating so sorry if this is confusing if something needs clarifying/explaining I can try my best.
 
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You actually did a pretty good job articulating yourself.

I'm in a similar boat as far as addictions go. I too like to be addicted to things becauae the addictions help me get through the day and help keep me from being totally apathetic. They give me something to FEEL and make the days go faster. It's pleasure chasing at its finest.

I've been addicted to alcohol, video games, YouTube, digital media, exercise, sugar, and am currently super addicted to caffeine. I would've had my go at narcotics if I could afford them. But I don't work.

You're not over thinking it. It IS a problem that CSN necome serious. It IS a REAL thing. I would say you have to THINK more.

What are your addictions? How do they make you feel? Are there any events, circumstances, habits, or rhoughts that trigger chasing these addictions? And most importantly, why are you chasing addictions? What's missing in your life that you're trying to supplement with addictions? And/or what problems are you running away from that the addictions help temporarily alleviate?
 
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You actually did a pretty good job articulating yourself.

I'm in a similar boat as far as addictions go. I too like to be addicted to things becauae the addictions help me get through the day and help keep me from being totally apathetic. They give me something to FEEL and make the days go faster. It's pleasure chasing at its finest.

I've been addicted to alcohol, video games, YouTube, digital media, exercise, sugar, and am currently super addicted to caffeine. I would've had my go at narcotics if I could afford them. But I don't work.

You're not over thinking it. It IS a problem that CSN necome serious. It IS a REAL thing. I would say you have to THINK more.

What are your addictions? How do they make you feel? Are there any events, circumstances, habits, or rhoughts that trigger chasing these addictions? And most importantly, why are you chasing addictions? What's missing in your life that you're trying to supplement with addictions? And/or what problems are you running away from that the addictions help temporarily alleviate?
My addictions are pretty much the same some I’m fine with like when I went to the gym loads as I do admit I should be going but then there’s the bad ones that I know I shouldn’t be doing like self harm and smoking and I also feel the need to do heavier drugs and drink but luckily I’ve not gone there because I can’t get them easily but I feel like I might. My most recent is shoplifting I met someone who taught me how to do it and now I go out almost every day after school and shoplift. I don’t quite understand why I do it but i also find my self longing for the lives of tv characters that are drinking and doing drugs etc and I know I shouldnt but I can’t help wanting it to be me. I also think it could be something maybe with the fact that I feel quite empty sometimes and sometimes I just sit in silence doing absolutely nothing for periods of time and if I’m addicted to something I can do that instead of nothing.
I just kinda wish that my addictions could be healthier and not smoking but that’s probably the one I like the most but I don’t think I’m addicted to smoking itself as I’m not sure I smoke properly but I like the way feels but not the normal way people like the way it feels idk I don’t think I get the same thing out of smoking that other people do it’s more the action of smoking than the smoking so I guess I want to find some kind of alternative that doesn’t damage me if that exists?
 
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It sounds like you're looking to belong. You need a peer group of positve, like minded people to hang out with and do positive things with. I admit, I believe it's becoming harder to do that nowadays. I need to take my own advice here.

I used to shoplift when I was a kid. I almost got caught once and it was the scariest moment of my life at the time. I stopped after that.

I too spend a lot of time alone. Maybe try reading? Listening to audiobooks? Try to find an artistic hobby or project that you can work on while you're alone. Don't beat yourself up too much about the smoking for now. But you have to stop shoplifting. You might end up in some serious trouble.
 
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