- Jul 1, 2014
I've accepted who I am. I don't belong here. I am just one of these people who cannot get it right. Everything I do is wrong or not good enough. What's the point any more? I can't speak my mind as no one wants to listen, that, or no one would 'tolerate' my views and opinions. I feel like an outcast. Was always the kid who sat alone at lunch and in class. Was always (and still am) the one who brings disappointment to others. I'm up to my neck in debt. I hate my job. I can't switch off. I just drink as much as I can whenever I can hoping for some damage. I don't want this life any more. My soul doesn't fit in this body. There's probably something wrong with me, but I don't want to do anything about it as I don't deserve it. I feel as if I was born to be this way. I was born to be one of the 'statistics' in whatever way shape or form. As i say, I am one of these people who just don't mesh together with what we call "life". 80 years then what? Exactly........