
jackskellington
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Great way to say hi I know, but I seriously need some help
I don't even know who I am any more, I have suffered with depression and anxiety for about 8 years (diagnosed anyway, but really it's been a lot longer than that)... but recently, over the last 3 or 4 years I guess, something's been different. I'm withdrawn, don't want to see anyone, picking arguments, and generally being an irritable cow, but then when I pick a fight I get scared that the person is going to abandon me and I go out of my way to try and put things right to prevent that from happening. It's crazy, I don't know why I'm doing this? And my mood swings are so dramatic and severe these days I don't know myself at all, and I can't imagine what it must be like for my friends and family.
I'm self-harming on a small scale, and have even thought of suicide a few times recently. There are a huge number of other things
I don't know what to do, every time I go and see my GP they just stick me on more anti-depressants, I have probably tried them all by now without any success at all, and they send me off to a counsellor, but I can't talk to those guys, it makes me really uncomfortable.
So what do I do? I'm almost giving up hope, I'm so tired of it all.
Sorry to babble on
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I don't even know who I am any more, I have suffered with depression and anxiety for about 8 years (diagnosed anyway, but really it's been a lot longer than that)... but recently, over the last 3 or 4 years I guess, something's been different. I'm withdrawn, don't want to see anyone, picking arguments, and generally being an irritable cow, but then when I pick a fight I get scared that the person is going to abandon me and I go out of my way to try and put things right to prevent that from happening. It's crazy, I don't know why I'm doing this? And my mood swings are so dramatic and severe these days I don't know myself at all, and I can't imagine what it must be like for my friends and family.
I'm self-harming on a small scale, and have even thought of suicide a few times recently. There are a huge number of other things
I don't know what to do, every time I go and see my GP they just stick me on more anti-depressants, I have probably tried them all by now without any success at all, and they send me off to a counsellor, but I can't talk to those guys, it makes me really uncomfortable.
So what do I do? I'm almost giving up hope, I'm so tired of it all.
Sorry to babble on
x