- Apr 19, 2019
Agree if they don’t know you are bipolar how would they know. My doctor knew.Agreed. To be semi-fair, the first doc didn't figure out that I was Bipolar because I only saw him when I was suicidal, and he gave me the first two meds. The second doc was the first to diagnose Bipolar but I told him he was nuts. Only saw him once and I can't remember what he prescribed, but I don't think I took it. The third doc was a sports medicine doctor (same credentials as a GP but specializes in athletes) and he gave the Wellbutrin, but apparently he had no experience with mental health stuff.... Actually I feel a pang of irrational shame when I look back at that, because as athletes we're trained to be physically and mentally tough. I was generally thought to be the toughest of everyone I new. Going to the team doc was one of the most embarrassing moments of my life. The look on his face... The look on my coaches' faces when they found out... Wow, memories rushing back.
He did however apologize, fessed up to making a mistake which I greatly respect and referred my to a practitioner with bipolar / schizoaffective experience.
It’s fair to say you weren’t referred to the proper people and there is nothing to be ashamed off. Mental illness isn’t a weakness. Your athletic practitioner should be advocating this. Nobody should feel shamed for seeking help. Obviously you know that logically. Don’t feel shame about having this. I’ve spent about 40 years in shame. It doesn’t help any.