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George10111
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Bare with me. This gets pretty deep and heavy
I feel like I'm just a problem in everyone's life. Please bare with me I'm not looking for attention. I just really need some help. I'm a 25 yr old male.
I had a fight with my parents the other day and we made up. I don't have enough money to move out. My parents hate me living with them but I don't know what I'm going to do. Its either this or live in a box outside. I come home and hear my parents talking shit about me, about how much of an inconvenience I've always been and how much money I've costed them. They're talking about moving into a shoebox so I'll be forced to move out.
I try to survive day to day mentally but I realize I might very well take my life some day. I just can't make it in this world. I can't do anything right and I don't feel like anyone will ever love and respect me. I get laughed at everywhere I go. If I'm going to be miserable my whole life I'd honestly rather just die. I don't think my parents even love me. All my neighbors hate me.
There is no peace in my life. Something tragic is always happening, ALWAYS if not tragic majorly inconvenient. I never get a chance to catch my breath. I know it would be selfish to commit suicide but I really don't see any long term way I can live in this world. I don't have any friends and I don't know where I'd end up if I did stay alive. All the odds are stacked up against me constantly. I try to find ways to make my parents happy every day but its never enough. Its not their fault I'm suicidal, not at all. This is my thing, brought in by life's circumstances. Everything bad that's ever happened has always been blamed on me. I just feel like I'm nothing more then a punching sac and a vomit bag.
I feel like a major burden. I don't want to be a burden to anybody. I love my parents. I feel like its all my fault. My bills have been choking me financially and I've had no way to really get ahead. I'm being 100% serious, not pitty me feel bad for poor George, I'm being real. I don't know what's going to happen to me today. Taking it an hour at a time.
I feel like I'm just a problem in everyone's life. Please bare with me I'm not looking for attention. I just really need some help. I'm a 25 yr old male.
I had a fight with my parents the other day and we made up. I don't have enough money to move out. My parents hate me living with them but I don't know what I'm going to do. Its either this or live in a box outside. I come home and hear my parents talking shit about me, about how much of an inconvenience I've always been and how much money I've costed them. They're talking about moving into a shoebox so I'll be forced to move out.
I try to survive day to day mentally but I realize I might very well take my life some day. I just can't make it in this world. I can't do anything right and I don't feel like anyone will ever love and respect me. I get laughed at everywhere I go. If I'm going to be miserable my whole life I'd honestly rather just die. I don't think my parents even love me. All my neighbors hate me.
There is no peace in my life. Something tragic is always happening, ALWAYS if not tragic majorly inconvenient. I never get a chance to catch my breath. I know it would be selfish to commit suicide but I really don't see any long term way I can live in this world. I don't have any friends and I don't know where I'd end up if I did stay alive. All the odds are stacked up against me constantly. I try to find ways to make my parents happy every day but its never enough. Its not their fault I'm suicidal, not at all. This is my thing, brought in by life's circumstances. Everything bad that's ever happened has always been blamed on me. I just feel like I'm nothing more then a punching sac and a vomit bag.
I feel like a major burden. I don't want to be a burden to anybody. I love my parents. I feel like its all my fault. My bills have been choking me financially and I've had no way to really get ahead. I'm being 100% serious, not pitty me feel bad for poor George, I'm being real. I don't know what's going to happen to me today. Taking it an hour at a time.
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