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I'll never accomplish even the most basic of goals. I'm just going to continue to grow older, fatter, and more worthless. I'm literally just someone doing nothing but eating and sleeping. My life is boring and meaningless. Being here is torture. If everyone else loves life, that's fine, but it's not for me. I wish I could take myself out painlessly. People say it's easy to find suicide methods online, but I haven't seen any. See? Worthless. Can't even find something that everyone says is easy to find.
 
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I know how you feel, I really do. I don't know if anything I can say will make things feel any better, but in my experience venting can help a ton. I'm here if you wanna talk. Also, if you're feeling suicidal, please check into a hospital ASAP.

I know that sounds generic, but I've been there three times and I mean... I'm still here. I hope you stick around! I hate to see anyone else feeling this way.
 
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Learning how to cook different meals would be a good hobby at least you will get fatter more happy.
 
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I'll never accomplish even the most basic of goals. I'm just going to continue to grow older, fatter, and more worthless. I'm literally just someone doing nothing but eating and sleeping. My life is boring and meaningless. Being here is torture. If everyone else loves life, that's fine, but it's not for me. I wish I could take myself out painlessly. People say it's easy to find suicide methods online, but I haven't seen any. See? Worthless. Can't even find something that everyone says is easy to find.
May I ask, if someone could do something for you, what would that be? Can anything make you feel better?
 
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If you’re thinking about suicide and are in immediate danger, please call your local emergency number (i.e. in the UK call 999, in the USA or Canada call 911, in Australia call 000 and in New Zealand call 111) or call the international emergency number of 112.

If you have been affected by the contents of this thread and would like to speak to someone about your feelings you can call one of the following helplines:

In the UK and Ireland, the Samaritans can be contacted on 116 123.
In the US, the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline is 1-800-273-8255.
In Canada, the Suicide Prevention Service on 1.833.456.4566.
In Australia, the crisis support service Lifeline is on 13 11 14.
In New Zealand, the Need to Talk service is on 1737 or 080017371737.
Other international helplines can be found at www.befrienders.org.
 
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Give me a hug (but maintain social distancing).
:rofl2: :rofl2: :rofl2:
I'll wear a mask and give you a hug, a big one! :)

I guess I was asking because my husband often expresses what the OP described, and I'm trying to figure out if there is anything I can do to make him feel better.
 
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Also, if you're feeling suicidal, please check into a hospital ASAP.
With my luck, I'm sure they'll say they can't admit anyone due to covid. Or that my stay would have to be extended because of covid.

I hope you stick around!
I'm useless. There's no need for me to be here. If anything, I'm probably in everyone's way.

May I ask, if someone could do something for you, what would that be? Can anything make you feel better?
It doesn't matter. People don't actually want to help other people. They claim that when they're in a position to help. But otherwise, they don't really care.


If you have been affected by the contents of this thread and would like to speak to someone about your feelings you can call one of the following helplines:
Thanks. I've been meaning to call one of these, but I'm still a little afraid to do so.
 
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It doesn't matter. People don't actually want to help other people. They claim that when they're in a position to help. But otherwise, they don't really care.
I'm sorry about that. I care though. I probably can't do much to help you out. I wish I could help out someone I know who is suffering, but he refuses my help and support. He even refuses hugs when I offer them. I'm sorry you're not doing well, I hope you feel better. Here's a hug anyway: :hug:
 
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With my luck, I'm sure they'll say they can't admit anyone due to covid. Or that my stay would have to be extended because of covid.



I'm useless. There's no need for me to be here. If anything, I'm probably in everyone's way.



It doesn't matter. People don't actually want to help other people. They claim that when they're in a position to help. But otherwise, they don't really care.




Thanks. I've been meaning to call one of these, but I'm still a little afraid to do so.
I like to pick out cognitive distortions in other people's thinking, because I believe that will help me identify cognitive distortions in my own thinking. I looked at the 15 cognitive distortions, and none of them readily come to mind in your thinking (I'm new at this). However, this is the next best thing I found in the article:

By learning to correctly identify this kind of “stinkin’ thinkin’,” a person can then answer the negative thinking back, and refute it. By refuting the negative thinking over and over again, it will slowly diminish overtime and be automatically replaced by more rational, balanced thinking.
 
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"A part of me doesn't want to go"

This is so true for so many of us. I know that when you are in a depressive episode that you don't think the same way. It can get really bad and I've been there many times over the years. If I had been successful the first time I tried to end things I would never have got to meet a family member who is now one of my most treasured of all.
It can be repetitive and it can beat you down to the ground a hundred times over, but that quote above still rings true. Why? Because inside all of us is that hope, or knowledge, or whatever the hell it is that tells us to hang on in there because you don't know what tomorrow might bring.
 
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That part of you that doesn’t want to go is hope.
I hope you are ok :)
 
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I'll never accomplish even the most basic of goals. I'm just going to continue to grow older, fatter, and more worthless. I'm literally just someone doing nothing but eating and sleeping. My life is boring and meaningless. Being here is torture. If everyone else loves life, that's fine, but it's not for me. I wish I could take myself out painlessly. People say it's easy to find suicide methods online, but I haven't seen any. See? Worthless. Can't even find something that everyone says is easy to find.
I'll never accomplish even the most basic of goals. I'm just going to continue to grow older, fatter, and more worthless. I'm literally just someone doing nothing but eating and sleeping. My life is boring and meaningless. Being here is torture. If everyone else loves life, that's fine, but it's not for me. I wish I could take myself out painlessly. People say it's easy to find suicide methods online, but I haven't seen any. See? Worthless. Can't even find something that everyone says is easy to find.
Hello unionguard. I am very new to this forum. I came on her and the first message I see is is yours. Please can you tell me a bit about yourself? You are eloquent and conversive. There is somebody there...
 
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