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A mood state that puzzles me

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Revi80

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Hi
I’m new to this forum(any forum to be honest). I’ve had mental health issues for as long as I can remember and was given a BP2 diagnosis a couple of years(I’m 38 now).
Every now and then i experience mood states I can’t identify.
It’s a highly anxious state where I feel depressed, but my mind and thoughts are overactive compared to my «normal» depressed mood. I get paranoid with borderline delusional catastrophizing thoughts. I get really restless and have trouble sitting still. I get a strange mix of selfesteem where I feel like shit, but still I’m the only one intelligent enough to understand what’s going on relating the catastrophizing thoughts. Everything gets overwhelming and if I by chance get these thoughts out of my head, something new will pop up in a flick of an instant.
When this passes, I end up in my «normal» depressed mood and feel totally exhausted and my mind is slowed down to a bare minimum.

I often go through a wired, optimistic and highly productive fase before it morphes into this state. And when the pure depression hits, it’s almost like a relief to be honest.

Is this purely an anxiety issue, or could this be BP related? Anyone care to share their thoughts?
 
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Fairy Lucretia

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hi ,if you are concerned about these issues the best thing would be to visit your GP and maybe ask for a referral to a psychiatrist for a formal diagnosis
please let is know how you get on and I hope you find this place useful
love Lu xxxx
 
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Revi80

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Hi, thanks for the reply.
I aired these issues(among others) while being diagnosed BP2, but I still can’t get my head wrapped around this issue in particular
Not looking for a diagnosis from you guys, just opinions from others than doctors. Someone who experiences BP themselves.
 
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Autumn78

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I understand your state. I get that way a lot. It's a mixed state. Often harder to identify. Usually a lot of anxiety.
 
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Revi80

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Thanks for the reply.
So maybe it’s hypomania that turns mixed before depression hits. Anyone else who experience that mood pattern?
 
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