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MD2001
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Hello, I do suffer with depression and I have for sometime now. I know that if I have a goal to reach for then that occupies my mind, in other words a distraction. I find that helps me. I did attempt suicide in June and since then my number one focus is to get away from my current location and just start new. That's been the goal I have been working towards so I started an English as a foreign language course so I could teach English abroad, I have nearly finished it but due to covid there are no jobs available. After finding out that it probably would be a few years until I could actually do that job abroad well it did get me down and that made me get myself worked up, stressed out and I just isolated myself so I could just evaluate my whole life. I know it sounds extreme but I was banking on that to be my way out and a new path to happiness. Well after a couple of days I found a new plan and that was to move further up north and flat share and get a job or even an apprenticeship. That has given me a new goal to reach and just the will to carry on with my life. The question I want to ask is that if I carry on banking my hopes on goals or targets then would it be a good thing or a bad thing or are there other methods to cope. It may just be that once I get to a place where I find inner happiness then I wont need 'new goals' to chase. Thanks for reading.
