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spuntree
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Hi everyone
I am in need of some serious advice because mental health has ripped my life apart, I don't know where to start.
I don't really know what I suffer from, the experts can't agree, all I know is that it's hard, I've been having episodes all my life and been on and off medications, anti depressents, anti psychotics, hospitals etc
Anyway last year I fell pregnant, I was having a stable patch, I came off the medication and appeared to be coping well and stable, after the birth this continued. Then I broke up with my partner and he told the social services that I was "off my trolly responding to voices" but I don't think I was, they took the baby from me.
I managed to hold it together for a couple of months after they took my baby and was having contact with him 4 days a week and battling through the courts to get him back. My psychiatrist put me back on some medication, it was too strong for me, made me too sleepy so I wasn't taking it properly and chopping it into chunks depending on how I felt.
Then I had to go through these heavy assessments with days of psychological assessing. The assessments came back bad and I was shocked. Though there was a glimmer of hope, they had recommended a mother and baby unit.
Then I don't understand why, but it all just overwhelmed me all of a sudden and have had quite a massive breakdown. Got taken into hospital but I wanted to leave so they sectioned me, a treatment order, and they began treating me with different anti psychotics. The new ones had this effect on me and I couldn't stop moving and pacing, it sent me more loopy, so they changed it back to the one I was originally on and a lower dose that I could handle. The only problem is that by then I am so off my trolly that the lower dose of the original medication just isn't working and now I am at home and I can't leave the bedroom and am really spun out and the noise I can hear is just all too much, and I am scared of my phone and anything to do with the outside world because it is all too much and I am so spun out that I can't think or do anything.
The experts are changing thier mind about the baby unit and I am seeing him less and less, I just can't cope. The case is moving fast and I am just not being given a fair chance to get treatment and get better, I am in court on friday and I don't know how I am going to manage it I can't manage the shop very well.
My CPN saw me today and she said she is not convinced I should be discharged at the 117 on monday and I am getting no where with my psychiatrist, he just isn't giving the treatment I need. I can't deal with all of this and battle the social services for my baby its all too much.
I'm struggling to go on.
Thanks
I am in need of some serious advice because mental health has ripped my life apart, I don't know where to start.
I don't really know what I suffer from, the experts can't agree, all I know is that it's hard, I've been having episodes all my life and been on and off medications, anti depressents, anti psychotics, hospitals etc
Anyway last year I fell pregnant, I was having a stable patch, I came off the medication and appeared to be coping well and stable, after the birth this continued. Then I broke up with my partner and he told the social services that I was "off my trolly responding to voices" but I don't think I was, they took the baby from me.
I managed to hold it together for a couple of months after they took my baby and was having contact with him 4 days a week and battling through the courts to get him back. My psychiatrist put me back on some medication, it was too strong for me, made me too sleepy so I wasn't taking it properly and chopping it into chunks depending on how I felt.
Then I had to go through these heavy assessments with days of psychological assessing. The assessments came back bad and I was shocked. Though there was a glimmer of hope, they had recommended a mother and baby unit.
Then I don't understand why, but it all just overwhelmed me all of a sudden and have had quite a massive breakdown. Got taken into hospital but I wanted to leave so they sectioned me, a treatment order, and they began treating me with different anti psychotics. The new ones had this effect on me and I couldn't stop moving and pacing, it sent me more loopy, so they changed it back to the one I was originally on and a lower dose that I could handle. The only problem is that by then I am so off my trolly that the lower dose of the original medication just isn't working and now I am at home and I can't leave the bedroom and am really spun out and the noise I can hear is just all too much, and I am scared of my phone and anything to do with the outside world because it is all too much and I am so spun out that I can't think or do anything.
The experts are changing thier mind about the baby unit and I am seeing him less and less, I just can't cope. The case is moving fast and I am just not being given a fair chance to get treatment and get better, I am in court on friday and I don't know how I am going to manage it I can't manage the shop very well.
My CPN saw me today and she said she is not convinced I should be discharged at the 117 on monday and I am getting no where with my psychiatrist, he just isn't giving the treatment I need. I can't deal with all of this and battle the social services for my baby its all too much.
I'm struggling to go on.
Thanks