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telemetry9
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I relied on a friend to come with me to see my GP. After some negative experiences and the damage they caused to me - I couldn't face going on my own anymore.
I spoke to my friend 2 days ago and he said it was fine about going today at 4.20pm. He knew I was reticent as I absolutely HATE going. The jist of it was that we would go as I have new symptoms that I would like to be recorded. He said it was my right to go and tell them - at least.
He phoned me this afternoon and asked me if I still wanted to go. My heart and spirit really sank. I could hear in his voice that his heart wasn't in it and he was hoping I would say I didn't want to. I told him that we had agreed and made the difficult decision but again - I knew in my heart was looking to get out of it.
I phoned him back and said I would just cancel it but I didn't mention that I knew how he really felt.
I wasn't being paranoid or projecting emotions as I know this person after many years. I'm really hurt that he didn't want to support me and now I feel pretty despondent.
A part of me didn't feel comfortable asking him anyway - but now I'm stuck. I feel he has sort of told me in a round about way.
I thought about going to the GP on my own this afternoon.....I still think to myself - what's the point. He had said he wanted to come with me to explain some things that have been happening.
Any advice on where I go from here?
thank you.
I spoke to my friend 2 days ago and he said it was fine about going today at 4.20pm. He knew I was reticent as I absolutely HATE going. The jist of it was that we would go as I have new symptoms that I would like to be recorded. He said it was my right to go and tell them - at least.
He phoned me this afternoon and asked me if I still wanted to go. My heart and spirit really sank. I could hear in his voice that his heart wasn't in it and he was hoping I would say I didn't want to. I told him that we had agreed and made the difficult decision but again - I knew in my heart was looking to get out of it.
I phoned him back and said I would just cancel it but I didn't mention that I knew how he really felt.
I wasn't being paranoid or projecting emotions as I know this person after many years. I'm really hurt that he didn't want to support me and now I feel pretty despondent.
A part of me didn't feel comfortable asking him anyway - but now I'm stuck. I feel he has sort of told me in a round about way.
I thought about going to the GP on my own this afternoon.....I still think to myself - what's the point. He had said he wanted to come with me to explain some things that have been happening.
Any advice on where I go from here?
thank you.