- Dec 22, 2019
Woke up at 4am and then couldn’t sleep. Mind was out of control.Got these stupid thoughts that everyone I know is in a better place than me. Even people I haven’t seen for 10 yrs. Then I started to hate myself for thinking this way. Perhaps I’m better of dead. I hate these thoughts, they are taking over my life so much I’m losing my identity. The weather is bad, the lockdown is bad and it’s Monday. I wish I knew what to do.