2 Years After Hospitalization...I'm Still Struggling Sometimes.

[Meat Sack]

Hello, everybody. I'm an adult. I take care of myself. I live alone and I have no friends. Other than that, I'm pretty okay. I can work and manage responsibilities. I had a childhood that was full of sexual, emotional, and physical abuse. I found a trauma therapist and did 2 and a half years of therapy that included EMDR. I've tried really hard to change my negative thought patterns that were a poor coping mechanism. I quit drinking. I've changed my diet. I use CBT skills. I'm learning how to get better.
I do still cry frequently and I can catch when my appetite or sleep schedules get messed up now. I do bad when there's extra stress. I was just wondering how you all managed. Was there a breaking point and how long did it take for you to feel better again?

 

[calypso]

You sound as though you have worked hard on yourself and been very strong. I admire that immensely. I managed like you, by putting into practise the things I learned and doing the religiously. I also recovered with the right medication and with a family behind me. I am diagnosed bipolar and know that without the meds it would be a different story. But they aren't for everyone, I know that.

I think you take one day at a time and make the most of that day. If you continue then before long a week of strength has passed, then a month and so forth. Crying can be a release or it can increase stress, which is it for you? I just awoke one morning and realised I wasn't depressed any more. I still get depressions but I can build on the things I learned and get through them with the help of friends and people on here who supported me.

 

[Meat Sack]

Thank you. Crying has been a huge release for me but it just feels weird and sometimes I feel like I can't shut it off but it doesn't distress me.
I can't say I'm really depressed at the moment but I do feel stuck because I don't know what I want to do with myself now. I'm just in a weird point of recovery. It's scary because I don't feel bad but I don't feel good and I feel trapped at this stage. It's like I'm trying too hard to figure out where to go from here.