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MarlieeB

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I've started seriously self harming again. I've taken a small overdose today.

I can't believe I've started doing this again.

This is August and September all over again.
 
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Was there anything that triggered you today?

Sorry haven't been keeping up with a lot of the forum today even though I've had a tab open all day.
 
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We all go backwards sometimes try not to beat yourself up over it. It's happened and its a setback but you've progressed before and you will again
 

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I've been feeling like this for a few days and have been self harming but the overdose is because I was a nasty, evil cow
 
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I've had a few bad self-harming days this month. Still can't show my bare arms off yet.

Did the self-harm make you feel better?
 

MarlieeB

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To start with yes and then the urge to overdose started. Even now, after I have had a small one I want to do the rest now, finish the job :(
 
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Remember to sting me if I start to annoy you.

You were saying that you wanted to overdose because you're evil. I've spent a lot of time believing I'm evil, but a lot of people say that evil doesn't really exist, that "evil" people are really just normal souls who have been hurt by the world in horrid ways, or they suffer from mental and emotional difficulties the general public don't understand.

So I'm curious to know what makes you qualify as evil?
 

MarlieeB

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As long as you don't go repeating yourself over and over and over again you won't.

I am a horrible person whose presence upsets people who can't explain things as well I want to, when I try to be nice it's horrible.

And some other stuff I can't say about.

I just know x
 
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Marls your not evil, I also spend a lot of time thinking I am too.

Please be safe, that's all I can say. I don;t have a fix we just have to believe in the good in ourselves sometimes

KS
xxxxx
 
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There must be plenty of reasons. DO a list of pros and cons.

Be safe - Be honest when you do the list
xxxxxxxxxxx
 
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As long as you don't go repeating yourself over and over and over again you won't.

I am a horrible person whose presence upsets people who can't explain things as well I want to, when I try to be nice it's horrible.

And some other stuff I can't say about.

I just know x
That's a bummer Marliee because my ex-friends told me they didn't enjoy my company anymore because I apparantly just say the same boring things over and over again. They were pretty intelligent girls, so they can't have been wrong about me.

In any case just know that your little Berrybum loves you very much and she'll be heartbroken if your no longer around to give her hugs.

Berrybum is a silly wee lass and she needs her lovely honey bee to take care of her xxx :hug:
 

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I tried to last week, when I was feeling better than I am now you the pros.... There were two, one that has been taken away, the cons.... 11

For over an hour I couldn't come up with pros.
 
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Marliee baby, I need to go to bed now because I've got a big scary presentation tomorrow.

I expect you to still be okay when I get back, or there'll be trouble missy! :curseyou:

(P.S. I love you bumble bee :hug:)
 
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