- Jan 12, 2015
I've been an extrovert all my life. I've had a lot of friends but recently I find it painful talking to people. My head will pound I feel like they are trying to attack me. I used to love talking to people and writing songs and playing music. I can't now I physically cannot and idk why. I'm 18 years of age and I've been dating the same girl since I was 12. Our 7 year anniversary is on February 27th. I've lived beside her since I was six. Recently I moved 7 hours away and I haven't slept at night since. I hear things and I see her and I hear her scream for help and I hear laughter and I only hear one word...hate. I hear chanting of the word hate all through the night and I .cant make him go away. I go to sleep when she wakes up so she can sing me to sleep...I haven't told her about it. I also have been yelling at it/him in the middle of the day and i dont know what to do anymore this is physically draining me. I haven't slept for more than 2 hour at a time and when I do I have nightmares. I'm afraid to ask for help.....this is the first time I've talked about this openly.