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10 weeks in hospital and my world just keeps falling apart.

Mixxy

Mixxy

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31/05 - 31/07 I spent on two different psych wards. I was poorly , the worst I’d ever been.

I’ve had anxiety and depression since I was a child. The anxiety is crippling me and ruining my life and what ever I do I can’t beat it. Spose you could say I have as I’m still alive but I’m existing at the moment and that’s it.

It’s all been so overwhelming and even settling back in at home has. I don’t speak to my toxic parents and they live miles away. I have no family. I’ve got my wonderful partner and his lovely family which I’m so grateful for but I feel so lost.

I’m at the point of having to wait for work to medically discharge me from service coz I can’t go back to that job. It’s too much for me. I’m on half pay so struggling financially, I’m having to give my car back which is on finance that I worked hard for. Im putting in for pip and when my sick pay stops il be going on esa. The citizens advice told me everything to do.

Every time I leave the house I’m having panic attacks ..... I’m on 3 different types of meds for my head and only one is doing anything but not for long. My psych nurse is gonna help me sort my meds out when I see the psychiatrist. As an inpatient it felt like the professionals thought they knew me more than I knew my self and I wasn’t strong enough to correct them and speak up.

I know I’ve got to help my self and that’s all I have been doing but I can’t do it for much longer. I’m so tired of it all.

Please tell me I can drag my self out of that black hole once more. I’ve never been this bad.
 
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Coolname

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31/05 - 31/07 I spent on two different psych wards. I was poorly , the worst I’d ever been.

I’ve had anxiety and depression since I was a child. The anxiety is crippling me and ruining my life and what ever I do I can’t beat it. Spose you could say I have as I’m still alive but I’m existing at the moment and that’s it.

It’s all been so overwhelming and even settling back in at home has. I don’t speak to my toxic parents and they live miles away. I have no family. I’ve got my wonderful partner and his lovely family which I’m so grateful for but I feel so lost.

I’m at the point of having to wait for work to medically discharge me from service coz I can’t go back to that job. It’s too much for me. I’m on half pay so struggling financially, I’m having to give my car back which is on finance that I worked hard for. Im putting in for pip and when my sick pay stops il be going on esa. The citizens advice told me everything to do.

Every time I leave the house I’m having panic attacks ..... I’m on 3 different types of meds for my head and only one is doing anything but not for long. My psych nurse is gonna help me sort my meds out when I see the psychiatrist. As an inpatient it felt like the professionals thought they knew me more than I knew my self and I wasn’t strong enough to correct them and speak up.

I know I’ve got to help my self and that’s all I have been doing but I can’t do it for much longer. I’m so tired of it all.

Please tell me I can drag my self out of that black hole once more. I’ve never been this bad.
Hi

You can drag yourself out once, twice and three times more if necessary. You have proved you are a survivor and survive you will. Your mood will change, your strength return.

 
Parayana

Parayana

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@Mixxy, I suffer from anxiety and depression (which is currently in remission) as well as Schizophrenia, what's helped me recently is accepting that I'm going to have the paranoid and anxious thoughts for the rest of my life even with meds, it was getting to the point where I was scared to go out because that made the thoughts worse, since I stopped fighting the thoughts and trying to supress them and jsut mindfully accepting them with a grin, just saying to myself - fear your back again things have got easier and their frequency and persitence have eased, hope I've been of some help, I was missing meds appointments and even a PIP interview because of the fear of anxiety and hallucinations.
 
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