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Anxiety depression intrusive and obsessional thoughts was the diagnosis but it’s the nasty voice inside my head that gets me on the ledge of decision every time
 
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intrusive and obsessional thoughts was the diagnosis but it’s the nasty voice inside my head that gets me on the ledge of decision every time
Welcome to the forums!

What sort of thoughts are you having and what's your inner voice like?
 
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Welcome to the forums!

What sort of thoughts are you having and what's your inner voice like?
Harming loved ones in lots of different scenarios which are so hard to say out loud the inner voice is disturbing disgusting and so loud sometimes
 
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That sounds terrible, the voice I hear is disturbing, disgusting and all round irritating, he used to be so loud until I medicated him and now he's 95% quieter than before.

Are you on any medication yourself or would be willing to try some? They can help immensely and not just with voices they can help with anxiety and depression as well.
 
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Been on antidepressants for a couple of years was taking risperidone after my first episode had counselling which helped with childhood issues it’s the voice learning to live with it Trying to cope
 
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I've learned to live with my voice by just ignoring everything he says, I haven't said a word to him for nearly three years now. Mostly he just begs me to talk to him again but I have a rule that if I haven't any thing nice to say don't say any thing at all so I stay silent. He also begs to come off medication but I'll never let him have the power to terrorise and torture me and generally use me as his own personal plaything like he did before.

Mine is definitely a sociopath that only thinks of himself and has no concept of right or wrong and a psychopath that has no trouble hurting me both physically and mentally.

The ultimate goal used to be to integrate him into my life, let him help me make decisions and be symbiotic towards each other, I would set aside time for him and even money for him to decide what to spend it on, but unfortunately he seems beyond hope, his behaviour is that of a naughty child and he's 39 years old so it would take decades to shape him into a half decent human being worthy of my attention.

I'd try medication again, it probably won't get rid of your voice just like they don't get rid of mine but it'll make him quieter and reduce the intensity of the intrusive thoughts.
 
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Are your voices your own voice, or external ones you don't recognise?
 
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the voices in my head unrecognisable and sometimes my own anxiety voice but it’s the angry voice that’s not me so loud
 
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Been on antidepressants for a couple of years was taking risperidone after my first episode had counselling which helped with childhood issues it’s the voice learning to live with it Trying to cope
I find risperidone takes the edge off things, yeah it knocks me out but I'd rather be dopey than have so much noise in my head.
 
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the voices in my head unrecognisable and sometimes my own anxiety voice but it’s the angry voice that’s not me so loud
Is the angry voice your abuser? The person's who have abused me in many ways tend to shout stuff at me.

They're probably auditory flashbacks and I totally understand very frightening, but risperidone seems to help mine and maybe yours?
 
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It feels like an abuser a voice that says all the wrong things angry and vindictive I’m at stage of confusion is it me ?? But the louder it gets it doesnt feel like me ?
 
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