I hope your classes and practicum go okay. Maybe getting into that routine will help you and also being around the children and your classmates will be good?
Not much to say about it. Low is low is low is low. Very low. So tired but I can't sleep straight through the night. I start my new uni classes at 4 this afternoon, and I'm supposed to start my practicum tomorrow, and I just don't know how I am going to get through this semester. Maybe I was hypomanic last semester. I don't know. I didn't think I was. But I crashed when the semester was over, and that was over a month ago. Climbing out of the dark hole is so hard.
I'm not sure, but I'll assume, from the mention of hypomania, that you have BP
I am Bipolar 2 (among others), and I empathize; It's a tough roller coaster to ride.
Try not to overbook yourself, or stress too much about uni or anything, it'll only make matters worse. Of course, that's much easier said than done
Keep it together
“When people see their behavior as inconsistent with their self-image or goals, their motivation to change can increase.” ---- Carrie Wilkens, PhD
Good luck with uni, I hope things get better for you.
one day at a time, one foot in front of the other.
try not to think about the future if it makes you afraid or panicky.
just today. This minute.
Good luck, you sound incredibly strong imo!
Thanks. That's what I'm hoping for. But I am also scared shitless about all the course work. Also, I have a 1/2 hour drive to my practicum site, and we are having unusually cold and snowy weather. Streets and highways are not properly cleared and sanded, so today the preschool was closed. If this weather keeps up I am going to have a hard time getting my 200 hours by the beginning of April. So yeah, I am super stressed. This is not a good way to start the semester - depressed an low motivation and anxiety. I loved my practicum last semester, and my sponsor teacher was really understanding about my MH issues. Plus she had the sweetest little dog, so I had pet therapy built into my practicum.
I just feel so fragile, like a thin layer of ice that one stone would shatter.
Wanting to shop for a binge but it's too icy in the parking lot of my apartment building and on the roads. At least when I lived in Winnipeg they sanded the roads properly.