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      Ugh, just got home for work & i'm pooped. lol @ that word but its true. Yesterday i was explaining to somebody about staying out of your head & what not but today i could not for the life of me ground myself. It was ridiculous, the constant barrage of unnecessary mental garbage while maintaining my responsibilities in the work place. During conversations i'm else where, nodding & replying as usual but at the same time speaking in my head, idk whats going on. Thank God were able to play music at work cause idk how i'd keep my mind on a constant rhythm with out it. I now have a high anxiety if my phone isn't playing something, like a podcast or music, i use it to cloud my sub vocalization w/ the words of the videos.. repeating the words that are said in the song/video in my head... its insane!!! i hate it. I decided to try and walk around the mall on my 30min break w/ out a phone, it was horrible. It felt like i was sitting in this body looking out my eyes as if it was a slit & was speaking to myself.. i feel like a coward or something .. idk but today was just to much, at least i'm off tomorrow..
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      Broke my phone today, well sort of.. i now can't listen to music or videos on it but everything else works.. bummer cause i use that to keep my mind occupied, i literally have a video playing everywhere i go just for static. Now that i'm home i'm using my laptop as my mobile sound.. this sucks. My anxiety jumped x10 & this happened while i was at work, lol. yikes. At least i got paid today, time to decompress.
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      This morning decided to wake up early & get things finished before work. Clean & Laundry. Hope everyone has a good day
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      Fuck!
      My mind has been racing hardcore these past few days, work has been knutz! .. I'm stuck in the sunken place. Decided to take my meds today lol but i can't tell what it did other than make my damn eye twitch, plus i had to keep walking outside to hear silence periodically. Kill me now, and i'm about to have a second job so yeah, lets have some fun.. ugh.. i hate this shit.

      I'm starting to resent waking up , oh well.. we persevere.
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      All i hear every day is "you talking shit"? or "omg" or "pussy" .. lmao this shit is crazy.
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      damn this sucks
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      I've been asking ppl who i believe has this telepathy thing & i still continue to get a no. I know forsure i hear their voices respond, & if it isn't them then could it really be my own mind making it up? .. I've had one person tell me its real, & i've heard their voice before too, clearly. This thing drains tf out of me, always sending me in loops. Its funny too cause really what is the end result i'm looking for? what do i hope to achieve by finding somebody who actually does hear my subvocalization & i theirs. Well i know the answer to that, its RESEARCH BITCH! .. hahaha no but really, itd be nice to know the in's & out's of this, I just need to find somebody who isn't scared of what they may hear when my mind mouth decides to throw up lol! .. idk, its just exhausting, its as if were suppose to be kept on a leash, ugh whatever.

      I noticed that my anxiety has just sky rocketed in this past year.. I can't be around loud noises anymore like an arcade or the mall even though i work in the mall haha. My mind starts racing & i continue to speak in my head rapidly, ugh. I can't even ride a damn go cart anymore without having to sub vocalize jibberish.. WHAT HAPPENED TO ME?!!?! ... i use to be fearless, not a care in the world.. now i can't walk out the damn house w/ out my phone playing.. everything is just so exhausting...
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      Quote Originally Posted by kingYee View Post
      I've been asking ppl who i believe has this telepathy thing & i still continue to get a no. I know forsure i hear their voices respond, & if it isn't them then could it really be my own mind making it up? .. I've had one person tell me its real, & i've heard their voice before too, clearly. This thing drains tf out of me, always sending me in loops. Its funny too cause really what is the end result i'm looking for? what do i hope to achieve by finding somebody who actually does hear my subvocalization & i theirs. Well i know the answer to that, its RESEARCH BITCH! .. hahaha no but really, itd be nice to know the in's & out's of this, I just need to find somebody who isn't scared of what they may hear when my mind mouth decides to throw up lol! .. idk, its just exhausting, its as if were suppose to be kept on a leash, ugh whatever.

      I noticed that my anxiety has just sky rocketed in this past year.. I can't be around loud noises anymore like an arcade or the mall even though i work in the mall haha. My mind starts racing & i continue to speak in my head rapidly, ugh. I can't even ride a damn go cart anymore without having to sub vocalize jibberish.. WHAT HAPPENED TO ME?!!?! ... i use to be fearless, not a care in the world.. now i can't walk out the damn house w/ out my phone playing.. everything is just so exhausting...
      Not ppl please its people you have misspelled.

      I hate the "ppl" thing sorry. I relate to you and sorry you are going through that, when you put ppl its just as bad as noises for me. I know your not a bad person I just hate it when people type the ppl instead of people.

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      Please don't say ppl its people is sounds so stupid and I know your not a stupid person. I just hate it when people type ppl as people and I'm really sorry for saying that.
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      i'll be sure to write it out next time WheatCrunchies.
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