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  1. Deadheading

    I tried it again yesterday

    I had this suicide attempt planned for at least a month. I had it mentally rehearsed. I would pack my bags and leave a suicide note in my wallet. I also decided on the restaurant to go to for my last supper. As I had my dinner, I was getting more anxious. It peaked once I payed my bill. I went...
  2. Z

    Panic Attack

    I was walking through the parking lot this morning to go shopping. After I got out of my car and started walking, A man was walking towards me with his dark hoodie pulled down and a scarf on his face. When I walked by him he stopped walking and was watching me walk into the store. Years ago...
  3. H

    Need help

    I feel like I am losing my mind. I can’t concentrate, I can’t eat, I can’t sleep. I see my entire life just crumbling before me. My wife of three years just walked out - walked out. Said she wasn’t happy. Won’t talk to me or tell me anything. I don’t know to sit and wait, carry on as normal? I...
  4. Prairie Sky

    Why does it hurt?

    This evening our community got together to clean the church building. I was enjoying the work and even the socializing - still trying to adjust to my newfound stability. We were pretty much done when I went to join a group of ladies who were standing off to the side talking. And then I...
  5. shaky

    Tapas, Nudity, Freedom

    I went for a walk today - over 5 miles. Some of it I walked naked - and I felt very free and happy Most of it I walked wearing just boots, backpack, hat and breech-cloths (or loincloth) I was not cold, but I suppose my body was working hard to maintain its temperature. When I got home I fel...
  6. L

    Unhealthy obsession...

    OK.. where to start… Im guessing most people would describe the following as ‘unhealthy’.. but none the less… ------ Just some background.. sorry if its long but I thinks its important… .. I am 33 yrs old, and have suffered from pretty bad social anxiety all my life… Just of late (last past 6...
  7. freshstart2016

    Update!

    Work has been going really well. Last week, I and my two colleagues had a real good afternoon together. My recent colleague left. So it's me and two males left (i refer them both as my two boys). One of whom I like. Anyway, I have been meaning to talk to my colleague about a non work subject...
  8. M

    Being referred to in the third person.

    I was telling my psychologist about something that happened on my second admission to the priory hospital. What happened was, I used to sit alone with a book, in the quiet area most days, and a woman would something walk through saying hello as she walked past. Over time,she started to say...
  9. Not_Crazy_Yet

    So I came pretty close to being a pest at the library.

    So yesterday I was posting on here and came to realize that with every keystroke I pressed was making a tick sound on the librarians computer. I started becoming paranoid about why she would be tracking my usage and damn near walked over and confronted her about it. I immediately left and took...
  10. standon

    whats wrong with me.

    I attended my first counselling session in 20 years yesterday. I felt at ease straight away and felt like the last 2 years anxieties and issues flooded out of the box I had locked them in. I felt a relief that I had been able to open up cus nearly walked past, after canceling the last 2...
  11. Sparklypurplepaws

    wishing you were someone else?

    I have for a long time daydreamed about being someone else - I used to look at students and wish I were in their shoes again. I've also done it when walking down the street and seeing people in their homes watching tv - wishing it were me in there! Today I walked to the shop and passed a petrol...
  12. LORD BURT

    Did you take a walk today.

    Well check in and tell us about it!! I walked for about 45 mins. today.
  13. zoomz

    Depot clinic.

    I was in the depot clinic yesterday waiting for the needle, A young woman walked in with what looked like her mother. They went up to the reception desk and said the depot is not for her and walked out. I thought to myself that's not the end of that, the last time I went against medication I...
  14. FallenAngel

    The World Goes By

    I had one of those rare moments. When the weight of burdens weigh you down and leaves you unable to move forward or look backwards. I drove to my exam and the scenery was stunning and captivated me so much that I just felt that weight melt away. I know it was for 30 minutes, but it was amazing...
  15. M

    Are these impulses linked to schizophrenia?

    Got diagnosed with schizophrenia back in April 2010. I have been on medication ever since and luckily I've been in remission for that long. Two psychiatrists differ on my diagnosis, one believes I have schizophrenia (paranoid) and the other believes I have schizoaffective (bipolar type). Lately...
  16. A

    Schizophrenia the voices, the depression, the feeling of being alone, the earth on your shoulders.

    Schizophrenia the voices, the depression, the feeling of being alone, the earth on your shoulders. Death im dying for it. this disease is the worst ever. I can't find love, friends, fun, I can't even find myself. I walked off jobs, walked off colleges, walked away from family members. Its...
  17. retrospect

    my psych assessment

    Well good peeps.... I had my psych assessment today. What a load of crap. I walked out in tears. Pooh poohed every thing i said. invalidated every thing i said. said its normal for parents to feel like i do etc etc. I said "you have no idea how it feels, you have no idea what its like in my...
  18. A

    losing friends

    I think I might have lost a friendship. In an email I mentioned my diagnosis and since then I have heard nothing from her. My main friend is my mum but our relationship has been a cause of much of the problems i've had. I have just lost other friends too because I have walked away from...
  19. G

    What's happening to me?

    when my dad has problems I.e. financial, and health. I blame it on myself and proceed to to cry, all these thoughts run through my head like "he's gonna die soon" "what will I do when he's gone?" or "we're gonna be homeless for sure." ad just today my brother and I were arguing over something...
  20. K

    New to site, be gentle

    Hi All, I am a 52 year old male, and at that age you would think not a lot would phaise me you would be wrong, i suffer from anxiety disorder, tommorrow (30.4.12) i have to sit a 3 day course i thought i had it under control but as the day gets nearer my anxiety starts up, i have had...
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