intrusive thoughts

  1. Ocdthebuginmybrain

    I didn't give into a mental compulsion today...it's the little things.

    Hello, all! So I'm new here but certainly not new to the struggles associated with a mental health disorder. I've had some form of OCD for almost 30 years now. Began with contamination and took about 20 years to get under control....now I mainly suffer from intrusive thoughts, rumination, and...
  2. K

    My intrusive thoughts landed me in prison(life sentence)

    I was being watched by the police last year as I had accidentally watched porn with an underage girl. This was not labelled as such, was on a legal site, and I had no idea that she was underage. I’m female too. And I’m attracted to older men not young girls. I had intrusive thoughts which came...
  3. T

    rOCD help - intrusive thoughts feel backwards and convincing

    Hello all... first time poster here. I have struggled with OCD thoughts for over 30 years and waves of depression for the last 20. I was officially diagnosed with OCD in February 2017 after having battled scrupulosity for years and after entering my first serious relationship at 37, which I...
  4. T

    Scared to buy my first gun..? OCD/rumination/intrusive thoughts

    this might be a long post, so please bear with me. First and foremost, I am pro-gun as the title may suggest, but I have this continuous fear that I’ll be careless with my purchased (AK/AR... to be determined) gun, and do what many other mentally unstable people do. I do not condone mass...
  5. daisydrops91

    Seeking Advice

    Hi Everyone. I'm currently awaiting CBT therapy (going for the second time) and I was wondering if anyone would be able to offer me some advice on the following: I've suffered with anxiety/depression/intrusive thoughts my whole life. I had a bad breakdown in 2011 where I tried to take my own...
  6. S

    Intrusive thoughts

    Hi friends! Been a while since a post but I think it’s needed right now. I keep having very bad intrusive thoughts that make me believe I am a bad person. I used to get these a lot, but they were on a different, If not more scary, subject. These thoughts are offensive and things I would never...
  7. C

    Thought or voice saying "kill" over and over

    I dont even know where to post this because it seems so messed up. I was obsessing over eye floaters in my eyes over a month ago and it was causing bad anxiety and depression. That then lead to me thinking i had sensorimotor ocd when i read about it, so i started obsessing about the fact that id...
  8. O

    Struggling with OCD flare up after mistake

    Hi everyone. I drank too much last week and have hurt my ex in some way, I can’t remember what I did but he’s blocked me on everything saying he’ll contact me when he’s ready, which I understand. I can’t stop thinking that I’ve done something really awful, I can’t talk to any of my friends in...
  9. L

    over two years clean, but

    I used to selfharm a few years back. Both my parents had eventually found out, and my dad didn't care (in fact, he used this against me to mock me, but that's another story) but I knew it hurt my mother deeply, so i pushed myself to stop. and I did. Like any addiction, even if you have been...
  10. M

    CBT basically "cured" but now im having a relapse, advice from CBT patients only please!

    CBT basically "cured" but now im having a relapse, advice from CBT patients only please! Hi Guys, I will try not to make this post long. Basically Ive been through a lot of things in my childhood and my adult years (Im 26 now). I started CBT three years ago, and let me tell you, when I...
  11. A

    Help. Ocd or psychosis?

    I’ve been so crazy lately. Keep googling mental illnesses and thinking I’m hearing my name being whispered but I can’t tell if I am or not. My harm thoughts are horrible too. They make me feel like I have to do it or something and I get anxious as hell, like “what if I have to act on it?” Like...
  12. M

    New here

    Hi, I just joined this site. I am 18 years old and from the Caribbean nation of Trinidad and Tobago although I’ve watched so much American cable that I sometimes feel American. Anyway, I suffer from OCD and Anxiety along with potential depression. I haven’t gone to a mental health professional...
  13. T

    Thinking and hearing "rape"

    How do i stop myself from thinking and hearing rape all the time? It gives me social anxiety and sensitive individuals seem to pick up on it (reading my thoughts.) Im so tired of it and I think my neibors are too. Music doesn't help all the time and I get distracted hearing voices while reading...
  14. M

    Intrusive negative feelings about part of body (TRIGGER WARNING)

    My brain is telling me it's stupid, shameful and weird to have this problem, so talking about it is so hard. I feel so pathetic and humiliated. But I need to talk to someone about it... so that's why I'm posting here. It's still extremely difficult, even though it's anonymous. But... I need help...
  15. L

    Magical thinking with time taking over my thoughts, super distressing.

    I've been diagnosed with OCD but was told that I'm on the lower end of the spectrum. I've had Generalized anxiety disorder all my life. Basically, about 7 years ago, during an extremely distressing time in my life, i began assigning special meanings to certain numbers when I'd check the time. I...
  16. Winged Wolf

    The sexual intrusive thoughts are seriously ruining my life

    Ok one, I don’t know if I’m posting this specific topic under the right thread so if that’s the case, please tell me. Two, my intrusive thoughts are sexual and I read rules “no sexual explicit stuff.” I have a hard time understanding things so I don’t know if I’m not allowed to talk about stuff...
  17. A

    Ocd contamination

    So I was coming into my house and as I came in I noticed that my dressing gown was half hanging out of the bin as well as a tissue. So I opened the lid and put the dressing gown in properly and the tissue but as I picked the tissue up I noticed there was something in the tissue and the tissue...
  18. A

    I need help with intrusive thoughts BPD

    Please if anyone can help me with BPD and tell me how to make paranoia and intrusive thoughts slow down. I have this constant thought/fear that my boyfriend is a peadophile. It makes me feel disgust and hate towards him and even if i know its an intrusive thought i cant get it to go away and i...
  19. R

    ROCD and Cheating OCD-Intrusive Thoughts

    I'm new here, and I'm here because I really need to know I'm not alone. This may take a while to explain, but I am in a relationship with a guy I am totally in love with, and I've never wanted anyone except him since we got together, but the thing is, I'm scared I have. I am terrified of...
  20. D

    POCD or the real thing?

    i'm a 19 year old girl who's been having extremely intrusive thoughts regarding children for the past 8 months or so. it all started when i watched an episode of black mirror where a pedophile is blackmailed by hackers. it left me feeling super paranoid and i went through months of search...