bpd

  1. Screechout

    Missing my old FP so much right now

    Tonight and like every night for past week i've not been able to sleep for many different reasons and tonight is because my old FP. I no longer see her and it's been over a month, in my head I count the days every day when I last saw her and spoke to her and it really hurts and miss her so much...
  2. F

    The pain of being love starved

    It is my understanding that a lot of the anguish folks with psychological issues are forced to endure often comes from the place in their heart that their parents failed to continually fill with the unconditional love every child deserves and needs, so it remains a gnawing (black?) hole. This...
  3. C

    I'm stuck in a rut

    Hi, new here, this is my first post. So I've been diagnosed with BPD since I had a major depressive episode during December and my mood swings were out of control. Before being diagnosed I was dropping in and out of college courses, doing the usual stupid, self destructive shit I always do...
  4. D

    Coping with BPD? rambling post.

    My best friend was diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder a couple of months ago, I feel that she is not coping well, if at all. She has told me just recently that she feels that its all too much and she no longer wants to be here. She has 3 children and works full time so seeing a...
  5. H

    When I Get Upset

    Like all couples, sometimes me and my partner get into arguments, they're never anything major but I get extremely upset. With Borderline Personality Disorder, when I get distressed it goes to a whole new level. I literally feel like he's going to leave me, the world is going to end and that I...
  6. C

    Confused, lost, overwhelmed... Who knows but you really just want to cry!

    So almost 2 years ago I had a counselor suggest I had BPD... Without much of a thought I dismissed her. Over the past year I have struggled with myself, my identity and most of all with my relationships. I feel so disconected and unable to put into word how hopeless and stuck I feel. Was I...
  7. E

    Leaving my BPD girlfriend after 9 months

    Hi all I have decided to leave my girlfriend after 9 months. It wasn't an easy decision to make but I feel it is the only option I have. The problem is that whenever I say something she doesn't like she becomes really emotional and hurts herself or threatens suicide and I get scared and take...
  8. T

    Dealing with a breakup through the BPD "lens" --

    Hello, everyone! I'm very interested in learning if any of you who struggle with BPD, have ever dealt with a painful breakup sometime in your life. Last weekend, my boyfriend of almost two years has expressed that he's recently lost feelings for me and would like a break to see if his feelings...
  9. M

    Minfullness yoga center for MH

    Hi everyone Lately I have been wondering has anyone gone to a mindfulness yoga treatment center for help with depression and bpd. I'm currently not working and having no routine and this unrelenting heaviness due to my depression is unbearable. Has anyone tried such a wellness program. The...
  10. H

    The First Time I Got Depression.

    I was 11 years old, and I had just started secondary school. Me and my family had just returned from a three week holiday in Tenerife, which was the home of a lot of my family over the years, my Grandad hadn't been very unwell and when we got back, something changed in me all of a sudden. Only a...
  11. T

    Relationships - Emotional Drought?

    Hello, everyone! I'm interested in learning if anyone here has every personally experienced or knows someone who has experienced something that I refer to as an emotional drought? Long story short, my boyfriend of almost two years has just expressed to me that he "needs time" and "needs a...
  12. tragicpink

    update - kicked out /tw self harm

    hey guys, long time no see. I haven't written in awhile and i figured this would be a good place to let my thoughts out. I was just kicked out of my house. I can't tell if it's because of my bpd and the way i act because of it OR if my parent's are actually the worst. Or something. Essentially...
  13. H

    My First Trauma - sorry for long post.

    So the events leading up to my diagnosis for Borderline Personality Disorder are very extensive, and it started when I was just 6 years old. It was the summer of 2005, and I was at a 7th Birthday Party for someone who lived a few doors down from me, they had a bouncy garden set up in the back...
  14. H

    Counselling

    Today my therapist told me that next week will be my 10th session with her, didn't know I had been to that many but I'm glad I have. I've been telling her a timeline of traumas dating back to when I was 6 years old and today and last session I spoke about something that was particularly hard to...
  15. H

    Work and Mental Health

    I've been a little worried about work because today I found out that I'm having my probationary hearing next week, I know that I'm not getting sacked and everything is fine. BUT, they have said that because of my fits, they need to contact my doctor to make sure that they're comfortable with me...
  16. Kepraell

    Am I being emotionally manipulated, is it their bpd or mine?

    This topic might be hard for people. But I seriously need to find advice on this. [tw: self harm mention] I have bpd. I am currently in a relationship with a girl who’s studying psychology, knows a fair bit about bpd and is very understanding. She’s polyamorous. I’m perfectly happy with her...
  17. B

    New here with BPD

    Hey all, I’m 32, got diagnosed with bpd 4 years ago. Under medicines and a DBT therapy since then. My husband and I got married few months ago, and wish to have a baby one day. The problem is I’m really scared about the pregnancy part. It freaks me out to think that something will grow inside of...
  18. B

    Crashing, spiralling

    I’ve been diagnosed with BPD a couple months ago, but I had my suspicions since childhood. Fast forward lots of adverse experiences, emotional, physical, sexual abuse, neglect…suicide attempts, PTSD… I’m in the middle of a criminal investigation about one thing and a separate ex-partner was just...
  19. P

    BPD and this weeks issues

    First time I have joined this and thought it would be useful toshare my woriies of this week. I have had BPD for the past 6 years and has cost me my marriage. My soon to be ex wife is amazing, she is my guardian angel, we have a friendship that is unique and so special to me, most people do not...
  20. C

    Bpd jealousy

    I feel like recently jealousy is eating me up, I hate my boyfriend doing anything without me, we have been together 5years. when he goes to work I will sit and cry, the thought of him being around other females at work drives me insane I find myself looking them up on social media every day and...