ESA venting / rant
near the start of this month I had one of these ESA medicals, it seemed like the doctor was understanding but I felt I wasn't given the chance to fully explain things and I felt like it was rushed.
I recently requested a report and it came in the post today. I am baffled by it quite frankly.
According to the report I have mild depression and advice of a return to work in 3 months. However I have been scored 0 points by this doctor, how can I score no points and yet be seemingly deemed incapable of work for 3 months?
This is not the overall decision as that has yet to be made, but if I have been scored 0 points we all know where that leads...
Under "other conditions reported" it says "client states no other problems", this is false. I told the doctor I have anxiety issues and OCD, I tried to explain this a bit as well. I was told that these could be underlying issues due to the depression and that I should just leave talking about them for my counselling...
I have no problems with dressing apparantly (ok I don't physically), but I wear the same pair of shorts and t-shirt for a week or more before I change to different clothes. I hardly ever get dressed properly. This was all stated by myself.
I like to watch TV generally day time TV, strange really as I tend to not watch TV at all in the day and only watch it late at night, not sure where they got this one from.
I feed and care for my pet and occasionally walk it for 10 minutes... hhmm... that is why my dad feeds my dog basically every single time and why I generally only take my dog out about once every couple of months...
I have no problems travelling to new locations. Despite the fact I told them that if my dad didn't take me to the medical I wouldn't have showed up.
adequete eye contact... i remember spending most of my time staring at the floor and then getting anxious thinking i better look up before they think im a wierdo
I am well dressed and neatly kempt. Please... I shave my hair about once per 3-4 months and then let it grow again until it becomes unbareable (I have like excma and my head can get really itchy). I showed up with a bit of a beard which I still haven't shaved today actually. I wore a football top to the medical, same thing I do when I get dressed "properly" every time (doesn't need ironing) I wear baggy jeans (doesn't need ironing), see the trend? I wear whatever takes the least amount of effort. Though I was never given a chance to defend my self by stating any of this as they came to their conclusion mearly on thier observation.
This is one perticular thing which annoyed me greatly too, as I have said previously I wasn't given a chance to explain fully about anxiety / OCD etc. I have no reccurrent thoughts, complex sequences, internal debates, distressing repetitive thoughts etc etc... THIS IS COMPLETELY FALSE and they would have known that if I was allowed to explain things fully.
I don't experience depersonalisation (the feeling of being unreal) don't know how they came to that conclusion as I was never asked about this sort of thing. I do sometimes feel things like this and what's the point in life, am I real? does anything really matter?
sorry for the rant but i just had to vent, just rang up my dad in work and had a good moan too
oh and to top it all off they have made a very big mistake, I have a single sheet that is someones actual decision. Their name, NI number, date of birth, how many points they scored etc. What should I do about this? Hang on to it as a sign of DWPs own incompetence?
I'd get on to whatever health professionals you have and ask them for help with this. I get incapacity benefit so luckily I've not had to go through this but this is really scary if thats the way they are dealing with things. How many others must be in the same position?? I think I'd also get onto the CAB to see if they can help.
Just dont accept what these people say to you- you know how you're feeling and as the other poster said contact your local mind charity or the CAB who can help you with the appeal.
These people who do the medical assesment are incompetent and really well i believe so, the "doctors" should be trained psychiatrist, psychotherapist and at least mental health nurses.
Oh hon, i just had to re-read your last statement, that is not only very poor practice but thats against the data protection act-- right? I think you shold tell them straight away.
Grey - You come across as intelligent, articulate, insightful, & competent. You write, & express yourself very well.
Despite popular misconception - mental illness does not equate to stupidity, lack of insight, & incompetence. Indeed - Mental Illness can be found in people with the opposite of those traits.
That you, me, or anyone; can have insight into things, & articulate well our situations; & mental states - in no way negates the severity of 'mental maladies', or how we are affected & impacted by such things.
I get the same difficulties, & I know that others do too - we come across as competent, when a more accurate description would be an 'apparent competence'. So we are left arguing & focusing on illness. How mad is that? When we want to be, & get well? Some aspects of my life have become to such a degree an explanation, & of introspection, & self analysis - that freud would be proud of the levels of self assessment. It can make me feel like some kind of a computerised self diagnostic program, some days, or a reference manual. It's Crazy.
From playing a game of feigned sanity to get out out of nut houses - to arguing illness - you couldn't make it up.
First i should see your G.P. aboout the condition on your head. It must be very distressing if it is irritating.
Regarding your application, I should talk to your G.P. about that as well, and ask his advice regarding your work, or referral to Social worker or advocate.
Thank you for your kind words Apotheosis and yes it's quite sad that we seemingly have to become experts of our own medical condition just in order to argue a point across. I think it's also the everlasting search for the answer of why you are like you are, in some kind of vain attempt for a quick cure.
I have had my first introductory appointment with psychotherapy etc. just to take a look at my problems and decide which type of therapy I should take (counseling).
Atleast I know what type of condition I have now, they told me I have reactive depression from a lot of bad events throughout my life. I pressed them to give me some sort of guess if my case was converted into the scale of minor / moderate / severe, which would they say I am and they said moderate. Although this is all prelimanary at the moment so maybe they will say I'm worse / better with more appointments.
The talk with them delved far deeper than the ESA medical, so I'm inclined to believe the diagnosis of reactive (moderate) than simply just minor depression which ATOS have put. So I guess that's one more thing to disagree with on the ESA report and I could likely get some evidence from a mental health specialist.
I spoke with my normal doctor too and mentioned about ATOS, they said they have had a few cases of problems over ESA. Cases where their patient clearly couldn't work and they were just given 10 minute examinations and told they are fine etc. I mean it says everything really when your own doctor calls them terrible.
You have a month to appeal the decision. If you haven't left it too late I suggest you seek advice from your local law centre or CAB. A quick google search using the word ATOS will bring up some very interesting stories.
I believe we're in the similar boat. Book an appointment with your local Mind organisation- they have benefit and advice advisers there, thats where i have been this morning. Basically what you do is call them and explain to them and make an appointment- and take all the relevant documents to them and they can advise your further.
Dont let them win hon, as long as you post your appeal off then it will be fine.
Good luck, and if you need anymore help just let me know.
I got decision letter today and of course 0 points scored.
I have begun picking apart their reports. I am honestly considering suing both the DWP and ATOS, this whole matter of lies, twisting etc has left me feeling more stressed and has lowered my mood over the course of it all. I really shouldn't have to go through all this crap but I guess that's their whole goal, they want to save money so they pray on the weak.
I have to say it really is only a matter of time before these fools provoke the wrong person and push them over the edge (if they haven't already).