Ok well, I'm 15 and a girl. I was diagnosed with Bipolar disorder by 2 doctors, but my community psych doesn't think I have the disorder, and says I'm just an "Impulsive and dramatic young woman who's been through a lot" :\ I've been feeling pretty low for about 8 months, after coming out of a 2 month hospitalisation for a suicide attempt, and she dosen't believe what I say! She tells me "Its not that bad, your exagerating" and "I dont know what to believe, you change your mind a lot, sometimes you say your ok and othertimes you say your life is awful"....ISNT THAT SYMPTOMATIC OF BIPOLAR? :\
Anyway I thought I'd ask some people here what you think, these are my symptoms, tell me if you think it IS just a 'hard time' or does it sound like Bipolar?
-I'm a former cutter, but I've given up now. I still have the urge to cut everytime I get stressed or upset
- 6 suicide attempts, although 5 were half hearted
-I feel empty a lot, and my emotions feel muted, and I woder if I'm dead
-Constantly think what it would be like to die, what would happen if I died, would it hurt much etc.
-I have a lot of anxiety (I have GAD and OCD also though)
-I constantly feel physically ill, but theres no medical cause
-Can't motivate myself to do anything, I've gone from an A* student to a D student in some subjects.
Thats me atm, but also when I've been the opposite, this is what happens:
- feel "invincible" and untouchable. Like nothing can stop me, and that I'm on top of the world
-Feel like I'm amazing, lots of confidence
-Don't get tired and I don't need to sleep
-talk really fast and my thoughts like, whoosh, kind of spin around my head really quickly
-I do stupid things because I think the consequences wont happen to me, e.g I tried to sneak away, I go out and put myself in risky situations
-I move really fast and get inspired a lot.
So what do you think? Is this normal teenage stuff, regular depression, or bipolar?