I want to die but I want support....

[YourAverageJoe]

Possibly - it's be difficult to gauge that though i.e. if you were to come back as another person, how would you know? Would you remember yourself? Would you still learn all the things you learned in your previous life?

I hope not... I hate this life man... I don't have good days really.

[stanogden]

I hope not... I hate this life man... I don't have good days really.

Joe I wouldn't even try and change your mind, as my days can be filled with thoughts of seld distruction... All I will say is we DON'T know whats round the corner.... in 24hrs my world has been changed, I am in a state of fear but this is nothing compared with what I have learnt..

I wish you hope for the future and you get good help.


stan

[meercat]

havent caught up on thread but want to send a hug or 3 ! stay strong pal xxx

[YourAverageJoe]

Thanks but it's fucking tough. I can feel the effect of these pills but I still have these severe down moments. It's almost like my brain hurts from being in too much distress. One of these days I'm just going to end up saying fuck it and get it all over and done with. The desire to kill myself is strong.... I'm not the type to go looking for attention, I've really struggled today... I'm in torture man...

I need stronger pills man...

Severe mental pain...

[YourAverageJoe]

I fucking hate depression. I wish they could operate to make it go away....

I'll tell you, I cannot wait for this Wii U to come out, that'll nullify the effects a little bit....

I've no escapism anymore. I use to have an escapism. Drawing....

[When will it end]

Dignitas is the place in Switzerland ?i know how you feel I lie in bed with my heart racing then it settles when I think of death ,the long peace .it weird that part of you that keeps you going isn't It ,I dnt know what it is just like some sick part of your brain that wants to see you struggle ,I've tried to do it a few times then slipped back into my mundane routine not changing anything just slogging along.i bet it wasn't always like this for you I know it wasn't for me but the good times Seem so tarnished by the bad now it's horrible.u day to you keep your chin up but I know it won't make a difference I'm surrounded by support and it makes no difference

[DoctorInternet2]

I can understand your wish to be gone, but do you know for sure that in a few years time you wont feel different? How do you know what's around the corner? They might come up with a better cure for depression (although that's very unlikely I think). You are right in that it affects people you know badly when someone commits suicide, and for a long time.
Surely you have small times in your life when you do feel slightly better, or do you really feel bad all the time? If you do ever feel good to some extent, can you work on that?
I think it would be unlikely that they would assist you for depression, because everyone might be doing it, everyone gets depressed sometimes, how will they know how bad your depression is?
I think you should give these thoughts a few years, and see if there's anyway around your difficulties other than suicide.