I hope not... I hate this life man... I don't have good days really.
Originally Posted by BobBobertson
Originally Posted by YourAverageJoe
Joe I wouldn't even try and change your mind, as my days can be filled with thoughts of seld distruction... All I will say is we DON'T know whats round the corner.... in 24hrs my world has been changed, I am in a state of fear but this is nothing compared with what I have learnt..
I wish you hope for the future and you get good help.
havent caught up on thread but want to send a hug or 3 ! stay strong pal xxx
Thanks but it's fucking tough. I can feel the effect of these pills but I still have these severe down moments. It's almost like my brain hurts from being in too much distress. One of these days I'm just going to end up saying fuck it and get it all over and done with. The desire to kill myself is strong.... I'm not the type to go looking for attention, I've really struggled today... I'm in torture man...
I need stronger pills man...
Severe mental pain...
I fucking hate depression. I wish they could operate to make it go away....
I'll tell you, I cannot wait for this Wii U to come out, that'll nullify the effects a little bit....
I've no escapism anymore. I use to have an escapism. Drawing....
Dignitas is the place in Switzerland ?i know how you feel I lie in bed with my heart racing then it settles when I think of death ,the long peace .it weird that part of you that keeps you going isn't It ,I dnt know what it is just like some sick part of your brain that wants to see you struggle ,I've tried to do it a few times then slipped back into my mundane routine not changing anything just slogging along.i bet it wasn't always like this for you I know it wasn't for me but the good times Seem so tarnished by the bad now it's horrible.u day to you keep your chin up but I know it won't make a difference I'm surrounded by support and it makes no difference
I can understand your wish to be gone, but do you know for sure that in a few years time you wont feel different? How do you know what's around the corner? They might come up with a better cure for depression (although that's very unlikely I think). You are right in that it affects people you know badly when someone commits suicide, and for a long time.
Surely you have small times in your life when you do feel slightly better, or do you really feel bad all the time? If you do ever feel good to some extent, can you work on that?
I think it would be unlikely that they would assist you for depression, because everyone might be doing it, everyone gets depressed sometimes, how will they know how bad your depression is?
I think you should give these thoughts a few years, and see if there's anyway around your difficulties other than suicide.
I still think that God holds all of the answers, even if we don't know exactly what God is.
Therefore we can all believe in something, that might be one of the best routes to a complete and healthy mind.