As much as I can feel that maybe they're bad for me, screwed up me likes that. That's why I often want to take more, so I feel ill, punish myself. Also the fact they suppress my appetite appeals. Logically of course I know this is all a bit wrong. So the screwed up half of me wants them, the logical half knows perhaps I shouldn't.
I sound like such a psycho! Haha.
Did you tell your doc that you sometimes over-medicate? He may have a completely different take on whether or not you should be on them in the first place. If you're a psycho, then we all are. Maybe it's everyone else that's nuts? - Lee