life has been s*** for a while now, with one thing and another! My emotions are all over the place since losing one of my best mates! Even some programmes on tv really get to me! its not that interesting, but tonight i had a curry, and guess what?? it upset me! Adam's favourite! i feel totally useless at the moment and very embarressed by being such a mess! i need a good kick up the bum really!! i used to cry eating curries with Adam cos they were so bloody spicey, used to make my nose run! Everything i do at the moment reminds me of Adam and i don't know how to stop everything being so painful! What a wimp?