heading towards a mega binge :’(

[LeeMarie]

Oh Sarah - I so wish you weren't so hard on yourself. You're only human and can only do so much. You need to find some type of healthy stress relief. I'm not one to talk because I tend to schedule my own life so tightly, but my therapist says that I need to find a healthy stress relief too. Starvation and purging are NOT healthy stress relievers; although that's how I relieve my stress. Sounds like a good idea - let's try to find one! - Lee

[*Sooty*]

Hope the rest of your day is going ok. I keep thinking of you.

How bout we all get together & smoke a big fat joint for some stress relief?! Lol. Oh, then we'd get the munchies &that wouldn't work at all!

S Xxx

[LeeMarie]

Thanks for the laugh Sooty! I needed that. Funny thing is. . .it sounded like a perfect plan until you reminded me of the munchies - I'd be mess after that!

[tentgirl]

Need you guys. Thanks for making me smile <3

Just outside MH centre for last bit. But I am such a b***h. I really am. Just saw friend and, yes, it's obvious that she's lost weight but I couldn't say a word. How awful am I? Ended up being there at the venue for longer than I had been told. Want to binge so bad but that would make me late for this appointment. I am shattered. Part of me wants to me home right now. Another part desperately needs to see my CPN. I am in such a mess. She's about to see me at my worst. Panic :’(

Xxx

[LeeMarie]

Sarah, you are NOT aweful. You need to think about Sarah right now. You need to put it out there today and let the professionals know and see the pain you're in. They can help. I've just started opening up to my own therapist. After all this time, finally being truthful. That's the one place I can be the real me because as soon as I leave her office, it's pretend Lee to everyone else. It is a relief to have at least 1 place to vent. We're thinking of you. - Lee

[*Sooty*]

Don't be so hard on yourself, you could've just blown her off & she would've felt let down. But you didn't, you were there with her, and I'm sure she has plenty of other people talking about her surgery & weight loss with her.

So, 2 down, 1 to go. You've done fab to make it through each one, you should congratulate yourself for that.

Good luck with the CPN, hope she can help calm you down a bit.

S Xxx