I will apologise firstly if some of this makes no sense, my mind isn't quite connecting. There's so much going on in there, I'm so down right now, things seem bad, maybe they are, but I don't know, I feel this pressure, like I should and NEED to be doing something productive, but I just want to relax, everything, voices, people, I want to scream because it's so frustrating, I blast music in my ears to drown anything else out. I'm so tired of not being able to relax, must do this and that, it's a waste of time otherwise, you'll never become anything of you don't do SOMETHING, but what's more important, what should I be concentrating on, I can't do anything because I should be doing too much, I hate feeling like this! I need it to stop.
I cant explain all of this to my GP and even if I did he wouldn't understand, just want to refer me, but I can't wait months to see someone, I'm so tired of this, I don't even know how I feel half of the time, and people ask me what's wrong and don't get that I just really don't know, I don't. I can't explain any of it.
I don't even know why I'm posting this, I just want to know why I feel this way and to stop feeling like this!