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[Sjl133]

Hello. I'm new here. Stumbled on this site through google. Hope I can get the hang of it.

I'm diagnosed Paranoid Schizoaffective. I'm 20 year old male. Almost 21.

Why I'm here?

Lately i've become more distant from myself. I feel as if nothing is real. Everything seems fake, distant, far away.

I drove the other day, and I got to my destination, but I didn't pay attention to anything. I don't even know if I had ran a red light or not.

Just total dissaware.

I feel like I'm disconnecting from reality.

From my own reality.

Currently I'm on Saphris 5mg morning 10mg night, 40 mg valium a day, and 25mg Lamactal.

I've been on every anti-psychotic except 1. Clozeral. And I refuse to go on it because you need blood work every week, and I'm terrified of needless.

My voices, hallucinations, paranoia... it's all getting worse. With a mix of hostility and agitation.

Do some Schizophrenics just not respond to anti-psychotics?

I'm not sure if this makes a difference but I've been hospitalized a few times for suicide attempts.

Help?

[Mayfair]

Hi 133, welcome to the forums

You can chat away in here. Lots of like minded people might just help you - well at least you can feel like you can be understood.

On your driving journey, was it a journey you regularly take?

[Foxjo]

Hi and welcome to the forum,
have a read of some of the forum posts and help and advice sections, see if there is anything there that may be helpful to you.
As Mayfair said- there are lots of people on here with simular symptoms as you, just maybe not logged on at the moment.
hopefully they will give you some advice when they log in.
Keep talking
Fox
x

[Sjl133]

Hi 133, welcome to the forums

You can chat away in here. Lots of like minded people might just help you - well at least you can feel like you can be understood.

On your driving journey, was it a journey you regularly take?

It's not a journey I regularly take, but it's an area I constantly drive in.

[aleshadxcherylc]

Hi sjl 33
Welcome to the forum well done for posting
So sorry to hear what you are going through
Have you been back to your gp about this? If not I would go and see them and maybe they can put you on some therapy to help you.
So sorry i can't advise but there are lots of people on here who suffer with what you've got so will be able to help support and advise you further
So sorry to hear you thought the only way out was Sucide but I'm glad it didn't work out
Remember if you ever get in despair again call your local crisis team come on here and talk to us or ring or email the samritians they will be there to listen and support you as well as us remember they are only thoughts and feelings it's not you talking
Take care keep strong and keep talking
Katie
Xx

[Mayfair]

It's not a journey I regularly take, but it's an area I constantly drive in.

I don't think that that it too usual then (what you described).