Hello. I'm new here. Stumbled on this site through google. Hope I can get the hang of it.
I'm diagnosed Paranoid Schizoaffective. I'm 20 year old male. Almost 21.
Why I'm here?
Lately i've become more distant from myself. I feel as if nothing is real. Everything seems fake, distant, far away.
I drove the other day, and I got to my destination, but I didn't pay attention to anything. I don't even know if I had ran a red light or not.
Just total dissaware.
I feel like I'm disconnecting from reality.
From my own reality.
Currently I'm on Saphris 5mg morning 10mg night, 40 mg valium a day, and 25mg Lamactal.
I've been on every anti-psychotic except 1. Clozeral. And I refuse to go on it because you need blood work every week, and I'm terrified of needless.
My voices, hallucinations, paranoia... it's all getting worse. With a mix of hostility and agitation.
Do some Schizophrenics just not respond to anti-psychotics?
I'm not sure if this makes a difference but I've been hospitalized a few times for suicide attempts.