My MI in full

[bebe]

I have been on this website for quiet a while now but never really stated what my MI is so here goes everybody.
I suffer with extreme paranoia,associated with BP I have horrible mood swings and terrible paranoid thoughts this has made my life sometime not worth living,,

My hubby is my main carer I have social phobia this is because of my paranoid thoughts so I very rarely go out and when I do go out my time is spent looking at the ground so I do not make eye contact with anyone outside I feel they talk,stare and judge me.
I also have bad psychotic episodes which can result in me SH to bad wounds.
My life is ruined with this illness it has taken control of it for too long and slowly killing me.
I mainly visit this website daily and try and give any support to anyone who is suffering as I feel for them and fully understand everything they type.

So this is my MI this is why I want to scream as I am going through a pretty tormented time at the mo with the break tomorrow I am not very well.
But I do know this is the RIGHT place to come to I do know people on here will know what I am tormented with

[PrincessM]

I hope it is the right place, I need somewhere to talk where am not judged...how do u tell people close to you that you want to harm yourself without them panicking? x

[bebe]

Hi Princess,
It is the right place as here you will find people who will understand what your thoughts,feeling and the way you act is, it always good to have that otherwise we would all remain confused and thinking it was just us that feel like we do

People close to you do panic when you tell them you want to SH but it all depends on how much of your MI they know if they know quiet a bit about the way you act, feel they will be able to help you in a calming way and try to stop you from SH but if they know little about you MI they would indeed panic .There is no sure way to tell family how you are feeling but try to in a calming way explaining how you are feeling and why you feel you want to SH
I do hope this helps you Princess
I am a little unwell today so I do hope my typing makes some sense to you
Keep in touch

[PrincessM]

Makes sense don't worry, am also not in the best place today rather manic cos of increased meds I dunno what it is, sick of side effects

[AliceinWonderland]

Thanks for saying all this bebe, I'm sorry you have to go through all this, it sounds horrible to live with. I don't really know what to say, just want to send and say I'm glad you find coming here helps.

Take care

A. x