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Am such a bloody failure. I just want to curl up :-(
What makes you say that you are a failure? Sorry you are feeling so down
KS
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hey, sorry its a bad day......
anything gone wrong or just low mood?
stan
What's up hun?
PM me if you want x x x x
Whats up? Why do you think that?
talk to us x
What doesn't kill me makes me Stronger
How i feel most days :(Oh and i'm the horse by the way!!)
failure
Hi hun
You are not a failure you have been doing so well recently
Anything In particular set this off??
Talk to us
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And the tears come streaming down your face,when you lose something you cant replace
Till now, I always got by on my own, I never really cared until I met you
No-one ever comes close to you
Had such a bad day. I went to the ED group this morning which was hard after not coping last week but I did it. The only reason I stayed to the end was that I felt trapped as there were chairs forming a barrier between me and the exit. There were two new people who were apprehensive about talking initially so I felt, as I had been there before, that I should talk. And then, after my 'turn' I couldn't then leave cos that would be rude for me not to be there when the other two people spoke.
I binged on the way home. I didn't feel safe. But now I can't take laxatives tonight as I am meant to be taking antibiotics and I don't know whether I can take both. I can't go for a run to burn off those disgusting calories because of my heart. I then couldn't eat tonight cos of how I feel so I haven't taken the antibiotics tonight. Does that mean that I've now messed up with those? Do I just carry on taking then tomorrow? I feel lightheaded. And my head is messed up. Apparently a BMI of 17 is okay and is not underweight so I do I aim for 16 to create a buffer between me and the risk of being a failure? in group, Ended up talking about my first piano teacher when I was three. She got brilliant grades out of me and I ended up playing in concerts, etc. But she would scream at me when I made mistakes, throw cushions across the room and scribble all over the music so much that people would be horrified. She's turned me into a high achiever but I have to be perfect and I don't do mistakes and I can't fail but I feel that I am cos I haven't rebooked my ECG and I am just useless and I feel like I am a kid who's being screamed at for failing. I can't do this any more.
People with anorexia tend to think of everything in terms of 'failure' or 'success'Originally Posted by SarahMc
You may as well say "do I aim for 18 to create a buffer in case I get anorexia again"
a BMI of 17.1 isnt a failure, neither is a BMI of 18, 19, 20, etc
'failure' has nothing to do with it
It is impossible to maintain an exact BMI; you will either be abit above or a bit below, therefore if your target is 17, that means that the target is to keep you BMI between 17 & 17.5, or 17 & 18.
There is only a 6 lbs difference between a BMI of 17 & 18, & people wouldnt notice any difference;
peoples' weight varies by a few pounds naturally throughout the day.
this could be said to be the voice of anorexia, which is always sneakily trying to push your targets downwards.
It will probably come up with more 'reasons' (lies) in future
i dont know the cause of your ECG problem, but if you remain healthy you will have years to attain your goal of a BMI of 17. Your heart problem has to take priority.
Did you feel a 'failure' when you were heavier?
& why do you feel that being thinner is so important? ie what will you gain?
Are you absolutely sure your BMI is over 17?
for you, a BMI of 17 represents 8 Stone 1.
Last edited by nutri; 17-05-12 at 14:12. Reason: i like editting
Whatever my BMI I just feel vile vile vile. Can't focus. Can't answer questions. Clearly being thick. Being a completely waste of space on here and in the real world.
SarahMc - I've just joined this forum after snooping for quite a long time. I can tell you for certain you are not a waste of space - you are one of the reasons I joined. You have great advice and insight on this very terrible and lonely disorder. So, I thank you and ask that you keep contributing! Feel better.
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