need to self harm "triggering"

[todieforscream]

Hi, i don't know if anyone will be around this late, but i'll post anyway.
For the last week or so the thoughts and feelings have gradually been getting worse to the point now where i don't know how much longer i can carry on for.
I just can't live with this emotional and extreme physical pain anymore. And its not like things will ever get much better physically.
I've already been self harming and again feel the need to do it tonight. But i also keep getting thoughts of overdoses in my head as well. I've done that in the past and its not pleasant, so i don't think i want to go there again but i just don't know what to do.
Sorry to rant on a bit
Charl

[aleshadxcherylc]

Hi hun
im here
pleae do not harm please please distract yourself talk on here watch Tv you are worth more than harm

Please keep talking to us if you cant keep yourself safe ring your local crisis team or please ring the samaritians
These are only thoughts and feelings thats all they are its not you talking its someone else x
we are here to listen and support you
xx

[chocolatebox123]

Hi, I'm very sorry to hear that you feel this way. I agree that you should try and distract yourself. I understand that this can be very difficult but you can get through it. Talking on here really is a good way to distract yourself and get good advice. Or read a book or do something that you used to enjoy. it may be an effort at the moment but it can and will get better. Hope this helps. Contact me any time you want to talk. xx

[todieforscream]

Thankyou!
At the moment i just have so much stuff just whizzing round my head i just don't know what to do with it all.
I have been trying the distraction that's what brought me on here. It does give me something else to think about unfortunately that only lasts for a short time.
I've had some really bad experiences with crisis team so am reluctant to call them because normally i come away feeling worse. But my social worker said that she had spoken to them and made them aware of my situation just in case. I think i may need to try in a little bit. I'm just real scared of what's going to happen to me both with and without the crisis team.

[Delta 88]

This might be a weird or crazy idea, but why don't you distract yourself by playing an online game? Sometimes playing tetris or pacman online helps me calm down a bit. Just depends. Try it!