Hello im sorry that youre experiencing these things. Its good to write your felings down and have a place to vent. I hope that by posting your thoughts that you got some peace of mind. Writing things down seems to help the logic part of the brain to recognize any illogical thought patterns. If writing your feelings down helps you, this is the place for you to writie them.
The onset of my voices came when I had been off medication for 6 months. The onset was strong and over powering. You shouldnt withhold any important information from doctors as this may mean that they dont give you the help you need - like extra medication.
But I do encourage you to keep posting if you feel it helps and maybe some others will offer tips that helped them.