i know no-one understands only me knows my past present and now and no-one understands this situation but ah well no-one ever understands me apart from me i feel so lonely isolated and i feel i like i cant do this anymore.
i really cant other people are like move on and enoughs enough well everyone else try and deal what ive had to deal with in my life and then have the lastest bombshell thrown at you a month ago and see how others cope obviously im a pathetic failure and i hurt so much i wish i could be someone different and make this pain go away and i wish i could just forget and move on and as everyone else puts it and that i wouldnt have to be on here but i cant so im sorry im trying but i cant! probably if she found out how i was reacting to this she would think im a freak! and wouldnt want to know me so im just a freskish mess i really wish i was someone else! and i wish i could start over again and not be here