Telling CPN of suicide and plans?

[Amyyy]

Yesterday I had a sudden impulsive thought to kill myself, I started to search online successful ways to kill myself, watched videos on how to kill myself successfully, looked to see if I could buy a suicide kit from anywhere and I also found places to buy things from that will help me. I have not yet bought anything but I know I will because I really do not want to live right now. I did not have access to the things I needed so instead I decided to harm myself which resulted in stitches. My CPN was told and he told me I have to go and see him this week. If I tell him all this will he be able to help me? All I want to do is die, I'm not even joking, the pain is too much and so are the thoughts. I know its only a matter of time before I buy these things and do it and sometimes that scares me but it is what I want more than anything. As much as I want to die I want the help. My CPN never really seems like he knows what to do to help me. I tell him things, he writes them down and thats it. If I tell him how serious I am about doing this and tell him of my plan to buy these things will he be able to help these thoughts stop? I just want everything to stop. Thank you.

[Foxjo]

Should you tell your CPN? YES
you should tell everyone who cares about you- why? because they can keep an eye on you and make sure your safe.

do you have telephone numbers for the samaritains? crisis team?

do you have an action plan for when you are really tempted?
you want to get well otherwise you wouldnt reach out for help.
We are here to support you the best we can

what has started your thoughts off?
talk to me
Fox
x

[jelly bean]

hi I have also looed on the internet about ways to kill myself. I have watched videos and know how I want to go as the video I watched looked very peaceful and she just slipped away. I even picked out the music I would like to have on when I go through with this plan. It has always stuck in my mind but have never told any professional about this. I think u should seek help before it gets an urge u cant control. I find it hard to open up and im scared what they will do if I told them my plans ect.

I think u need to ensure u have numbers like foxjo said and have the crisis team set up to support u.

I know its hard but u need to seek as much help support from everyone around u reach out to people.

[Boris]

hi I have also looked on the internet about ways to kill myself

Yes we need the internet for these things... I remember the story of this guy putting his head in a gas oven, and getting agitated because it was taking so long. He decided to light a cigarette to calm himself down :-p
I wasn`t being flippant, I was merely pointing out that the Internet is a useful tool and should be used for better purposes. Thinking about how to self-destruct is not healthy!

[aleshadxcherylc]

Hi Amy
So sorry to hear of how low you are feeling.
You are not alone im feeling rather sucidial right now, you really need to tell your CPN how your feeling if you are not hoenst with them how can they help you be as open and as honest as possible to your CPN then he will be able to get you the right help and be able to support you through this tough time.
Please ring or email the samritains they will be there to listen and to support you as well as we will all be on here for you also.
I feel your pain im going through it with you too..
With the right help and support you will feel better in time i promise you.
Take care keep strong and keep talking to us all.
Katie
xx

[Amyyy]

Should you tell your CPN? YES
you should tell everyone who cares about you- why? because they can keep an eye on you and make sure your safe.

do you have telephone numbers for the samaritains? crisis team?

do you have an action plan for when you are really tempted?
you want to get well otherwise you wouldnt reach out for help.
We are here to support you the best we can

what has started your thoughts off?
talk to me
Fox
x

I have a plan of action, yes. I just need to buy the stuff and then set it up and I'm ready to go. I was thinking about going to buy it tomorrow as I'm not in university. I can't tell my family as none of them understand things like this, they just shout. I had to go home last weekend and it always triggers a lot of stuff off. I hate my life, its sucks. I'm ready to go now, for real this time. Thank you for all the replies.

[razza]

Huni,
I understand how u feel, I truly do.
And I am sorry I have not much words, been through an ordeal this week.

But I believe what foxjo meant by an action plan is:

1. Nice things you can do to try and soothe or relax or the one I find easiest, to distract yourself when you get the urges eg a,book, movie, friends etc

2. People you can call to talk to for a chat. The Samaritans or other helpline, a close friend (you don't necessarily have to tell your friend what is going on, just talking about random things can help)...

3. Phone your CPN/ GP
4. Phone your local crisis team
5. Present to accident and emergency at your local hospital.

This is just a guide and you will make it more personal and where you start on the list depends on how you are feeling. Sometimes you will need to skip straight to step 4 or 5 for example.

Yes I think you should tell your CPN and also ask them to help you make a "safety action plan". I know you aren't sure it can help, but ask yourself, could it really hurt to have more support?

You don't have to do this alone huni.

[Boris]

I hate my life, it sucks

So you`ve come up with this brilliant master plan to put it all right? Hardly original is it? How hard was it to condition yourself to achieve something we`re not meant to do? What happens if your plan goes belly up?
Please re-consider, give us an idea of what is wrong in your life, and give us the opportunity of helping you (the one thing you haven`t done yet). There is always an answer, but when we are under the cosh it`s hard to find it on our own. Generally people like to help, situations reversed wouldn`t you?