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[memeandme]

Hi all not sure if this is the right place but im going to tell you about my life experiences/upheavals,i warn you its not pretty but here goes It all started when i was 6years old i was molested by the school caretaker.On my 16 birthday i was raped,the police called it date rape he only got 2years probation.I took an overdose a couple of months after.At 18 the boy that id moved in with started using his fists,i supprised him and i hit back.At 21 i met my former husband who unbeknown to me at the time was a drunk and a gambler after 13years of mental abuse i left him.Found someone else(My sons father)who lied and cheated with 2 other women at the same time.He died in a car crash the week after my son was born.I nearly lost my son at birth,the cord was wrapped round his neck 3 times and they slipped with the forceps leaving a massive scar on his forehead.My good friend died of cancer,another friend hung himself.My nan and granddad past away recently.Thats all the bad things.Now the good I have a beautiful son,a wonderful Husband,ive gained 3 stepsons who live with their mum.My Mum &dad have just moved closer to me.I know its going to take a bit longer to completely get over all the bad stuff thats happened but things are getting better.I keep asking myself how ive coped with all this and looking back i was so determined that it wasnt going to get me down i just carried on as if nothing had happened.The rape and molesting dosent bother me now its what my ex husband did to me and my sons father and all the deaths in the last 3/4years thats why im going to a councillor next week.

[Foxjo]

HI!
wow, that must have took some courage. well done for getting all of that out.
im glad you are getting counselling to help you put the past behind you.
It is painful to remember the bad times but you need to to be able to move forward.

Despite all that bad things that happened to you you seem sort of positive. Cling onto that positivity and try and not let to slip away.
have a read of some of our member journals and maybe start one yourself?
keep talking
Fox
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[aleshadxcherylc]

Hi memeandme
Welcome the foroum, well done on your first post i know its tough to do. Well done for saying so much on your situation, hope it helped and also if and when you feel up to it you might want to start a journal off your own to keep a track on your progress day to day.
So sorry to hear you have suffered thorugh so much, you have come through it and you are such a tough strong person but so glad you are now going to see a counseller like fox says you have said some positive things which is a good thing and you wanting to change will make it easier for you.
Please keep strong take care and keep talking to us there will always be someone here for you.
Katie
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[Mr. Flibble]

I see you are a fighter rather than a quitter. Nice one! Well done!
I would suggest you would be a great help to the voluntary community after (or while) you talk through your issues.
If there's anything you feel strongly about, underpriveliged children, or whatever, I suggest you join some group in that area.
I predict in 10 years you will be running it!

[memeandme]

Thank you all for the great response.I do try to be strong and positive,it is very difficult sometimes.Anyway Ive been so busy over the weekend decorating my sons room,hes really into doctor who,so weve themed his room.Anyways im not feeling to good today my son had a massive tantrum this morning at school,hes going through a few probs too, he was bullied since 2010.we changed school and he was bullied again up till a few weeks ago,hes seeing the school councillor and he has one to one permenantly. But today i had to bribe him yet again to calm down and be a good boy for the rest of the day.the school seems to think hes attention seeking but we spend all of our time,when hes here with him.I cant seem to stop blubbering today.will post later.Mr flibble How would i get on to the voluntary? community

[Foxjo]

Glad you have been busy over the weekend, you do sound strong and positive. as long as you remember it is ok not to be ok if thats how you truely feel! (does that make sense!?).

It must be such a strain for you and your son, being bullied is awful. not wanting to go to school and get a good education is heart breaking. School is supposed to form us into the person we want to be and can be. i really hope you manage to break the bullying cycle. He cerainly is not attention seeking.

If you are in the UK there are volunatary websites. you can find things in your area. One i look at is called DO. google voluneteering and your town it should bring some ideas up.

Please keep in touch, its nice to have you around.
Sending positive thoughts and some hugs !
Fox
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