This is a recurring obsession of mine though i do not have OCD. Someone i mentioned this to on a thread elsewhere said "you are mentally ill,or else,why would you have been under mh services for so long,and why would you need medication if you werent?"
I said i could reality test like that but it doesn't stop the uncertainty in my head.
Last year in a letter to support my claim for a bus pass my pdoc said i suffered from psychotic symptoms. I don't know whether that's true(if so mildly not severely)or whether she just said that to make sure i got the bus pass.
I am not in complete denial but i have fluctuating periods of doubt and acceptance.
For me there's a place between chronic anosognosia and unwavering acceptance.