I'm so sad. My dad has never been there for me, but we 'got back together' for a year or so and then it all went wrong again. He doesn't love me like he should, i don't think he ever really did, he hasn't hurt me by doing anything, he has hurt me because he doesn't do anything. He is not bothered, doesn't love me, it kills me, i am so sad about it. I don't know whether to tell him where to go and end it completely because of the pain, or just take what he gives, accept him as he is. He hasn't spoken to me since before christmas anyway. I wish i had had a good dad who lived with me, loved me, held my hand, cuddled me, played with me, walked down the street with me on his shoulders. Dad's don't realise how essential they are in our lives do they.