Anxious New person

[Rachy17]

Hi,I'm new to this forum. I am so fed up as I am always anxious. I can't go to work because of it, am currently off but due to go back saturday. I'm not looking forwards to it at all. At the moment I feel nervous, butterflies and can't get my breath. I have been to my GP about this a few times before and also been to see a cognative therapist, but feel that did not help. My GP has put me on Diazepam before and instead of going to see him this time I rang the surgery to ask if he could do me a prescription for Diazepam which I got yesterday. I don't know if its working. I still feel anxious.
When it came on yesterday I became emotional and couldnt breathe, like a panic attack. I couldnt go to work. I have been off work with this before, the longest being a month. I'm worried about my job, but feel I am no use to anyone when feeling like this. I feel I can't talk to anyone as people close to me do not understand. I would be grateful of support and advice.

[Ainsworth]

hello Rachy welcome to the MHF

did you have anything that triggered the anxiety? or remember when it started to become more then you could cope with. i think you need to go back to the GP. just because they did give you certain treatments doesnt mean they cant offer anything more.

diazepam can work for a quick fix but isnt a long term drug because of the risk of addiction. how much are you taking?

others will reply, hopefully with more advice for you and support

[wendolene26]

hello Rachy and to the forum

As far as I'm led to believe diazepam is not normally prescribed as a long term solution as it is highly addictive. I think it would be worth getting another appointment with your GP and asking if there is perhaps something more appropriate that you could be prescribed instead. Before you go back to your GP it might be an idea to try and jot down notes about how you feel, if you have a particular reaction to a situation how it makes you feel; any thoughts that you have been having. This way you can write all this down at your leisure and not feel under pressure in the 5 minutes of a doctors appointment where you may forget things.

If you have any questions about the forum and are not sure about anything, please contact myself or one of the other forum buddies, our names appear in Orange.

take care now,

Wendolene x

[Rachy17]

Hi, Ainsworth and Wendolene 26. Thankyou for replies. I'm still feeling so strange at the moment. Can't breathe properly and got that funny feeling in my stomach. Just dont know why. Maybe thinking of work and whats going to happen, maybe because i'm going to my mums tomorrow and to see a friend. Just feeling anxious. Cannot think what has triggered it, previously. I suffer from depression too for which I am on antidepressants- two types. I have had depression for just over 12 years but the anxiety has come on over the past year or so. Its debilitating at times. Sometimes I can work through it but other times as I said, I can be so bad I cannot go out, to work for example. I have also self harmed a couple of times which I have nearly done the same again recently, or the intent has been there.
It's driving me mad feeling like this 80-90% of the time.
I get anxiety thinking my doctor will have had enough of me. I don't want to go to CBT again, is counselling an option?
I'm also anxious abotu tomorrow as my boss is ringing me. I spoke to her today and worried like crazy after wards thinking my job is not safe, anxious thinking that I'll lose my job because of this anxiety.

Argggghhhhhhhhh just want to curl up.......

[Rachy17]

Me again, feeling overwhelmingly anxious tonight. Got to go to work tomorrow and not looking forwards to it. Wish I didnt feel like this

[Rachy17]

Don't want to go to bed because I don't want to get up, please let this feeling go away ........

[Ainsworth]

hello again Rachy, have you tried relaxation? or meditation? they can help with anxiety. and yes, there should be more open to you then just CBT but as with anything it can be a fight to get it.

how much diazepam do you take?

[Rachy17]

Hi, well didnt go to work. Woke up at 6.30 couldnt breathe and just felt awful. Took a Diazepam. I'm on 5mg to take when required for acute anxiety. Havent tried relaxation or meditation. My work have just rung me, spoke to a lovely Nurse that i work with. She calmed me down a bit and said don't worry about tomorrow working, that if i feel like I can't go dont worry shes putting me down for a mid shift 10-6pm so it doesnt matter if i dont feel up to it. I'm anxious about that now, whether to go or not. I know i should. It's just difficult.
She said to try and get doctors appointment monday, but I feel anxious about that aswell, about what to say, I feel like I'm wasting his time as i've been before about this. He then referred me to a crisis team and then CBT.

Just want to scream.

[Rachy17]

Still off work, my Doctor has signed me to go back on thurs, here goes my anxiety again. Really have had enough..........

[wendolene26]

What else did your doctor say? Has he given you any advice or any meds? When does he want to see you again?

How did the discussion with the doc go when he said he was signing you back Thursday.

How do you feel about going back to work... Talk to us, it might help to straighten things out in your own mind.

take care now,

Wendolene x