Happy New Year to all BUT

[RedRoseBeauty]

I don't know what's happening to me.
I stopped taking my meds because I couldn't be bothered being medicated for life.
New Year was eventful to say the least. I keep having dreams that are upsetting. I feel low. I want to kill myself. I wish I had the guts to do it though.
So much has happened, I thought I was okay, I'm not.
Something is not right upstairs, not just my bulimia but there is something more there but since being labelled as bulimic that seems to be all people think is wrong with me.
There is more, I know that, I can't tell the GP that though can I? That's like telling him his job? Surely he should notice?

I've gone back to starvation mode, and living off cigarettes, red bull, coleslaw + Boooooze.
I am 21 in 18 days and I really can't see the point in facing life on this earth after all the shit I have already had to deal with, I really can't deal with it all much longer.

Apology's for the long thread.

Like I said Happy 2012 to you all.

xoxox.

[dusty1.3]

hi redrosebeauty

i guess coming off yours meds you probably having withdrawal, you really should try get back on them to help you, and yes you can tell your gp you think something not right, its your mind and body, you know it better than anyone, theres no harm in being honest and maybe getting extra help, you seem to have a lot on your mind, just talk to gp, sometimes they dont notice, so speak up and dont be afraid to speak up, you take care.

and happy new year to you too x

[RedRoseBeauty]

I shouldn't have even come off my meds, I just decided not to take them anymore.
I missed my last GP appointment. I couldn't face him.

[stanogden]

I shouldn't have even come off my meds, I just decided not to take them anymore.
I missed my last GP appointment. I couldn't face him.

hiya Hun,

do yourself a favor and re book your GP app, tell him that you stopped the meds and see where u can go from here...... you don't deserve to feel so crap at such a young age......


please go back to your GP


uncle Stan

[RedRoseBeauty]

Nobody deserves to be unhappy and feel so low.
But at my age I can't see myself getting happier which depresses me more if I have so much longer to live!
If I can find the strength I will book another appointment.

Thanks xox