I don't know what's happening to me.
I stopped taking my meds because I couldn't be bothered being medicated for life.
New Year was eventful to say the least. I keep having dreams that are upsetting. I feel low. I want to kill myself. I wish I had the guts to do it though.
So much has happened, I thought I was okay, I'm not.
Something is not right upstairs, not just my bulimia but there is something more there but since being labelled as bulimic that seems to be all people think is wrong with me.
There is more, I know that, I can't tell the GP that though can I? That's like telling him his job? Surely he should notice?
I've gone back to starvation mode, and living off cigarettes, red bull, coleslaw + Boooooze.
I am 21 in 18 days and I really can't see the point in facing life on this earth after all the shit I have already had to deal with, I really can't deal with it all much longer.
Apology's for the long thread.
Like I said Happy 2012 to you all.