Okay, so I'm new here and I hope I'm posting this in the right place!
I went to the doctor in July thinking I had OCD and I was right, and I'm awaiting to be put on cognitive behavioural therapy (which is taking forever to do, in the meantime symptoms are getting worse) and lately, I'm beginning to think it's more than OCD. I'm starting to think I'm dealing with pstd also but I'm still not sure. I went through a traumatic experience earlier this year and ironically the 'OCD' came out after that.
So here's the problem:
I constantly feel like I am battling against my mind to stay happy and to stop thinking certain thoughts and I am isolating myself from people to stop them from triggering these thoughts. For example if someone coughs or even sniffs, it will trigger me to want to cough or sniff and then I can't shake off the thought for - sometimes - days. My body takes it to a physical level where I will even start producing excess saliva or snot (gross) and I can't stop it. I feel like my mind is controlling me and I can't escape; it's like my own mind is hell. Even the sound of doors slamming can trigger me to feel ridiculously angry, or heavy breathing can trigger these thoughts too and I feel like I'm going insane.
I've never felt so trapped in my life... How do I stop these thoughts that I just can't shake?